Is she gone?
I first started posting on A2K because I wanted to understand why other people were saying some of the things they were saying. I didn't understand them. I am pretty much housebound with my cat shelter and where I live and I don't have a lot of contact with the outside world. Finding A2K was pretty amazing for me. I could talk to other people about how they felt and think and I could do the same.
I have learned a lot from a lot of people on here. I am so grateful for all that has been taught me. But, I'm tired. I'm tired of the nastiness because people don't agree with each other. I'm tired of the perceptions people have about certain people for what they do or don't believe.
I am very upset right now. It seems no one thinks I have actual human feelings. Well, I do. Maybe I'm too sensitive. So what? That is who I am. I care about people. I care about people I don't even know. I am just not going to let myself get drawn into this anymore. It hurts too much.
Some of you can be the most compassionate and amazing people in one thread and in another tear someone to shreds. I don't understand that. I may like some people less than others on here and engage in some tit for tat but to tear a person apart? Why? Why do those that do this feel it is necessary? Why, when you know it hurts someone else, do you it? (Please understand I am not talking about everyone. If it applies to you it does, if it doesn't, it doesn't.)
Don't you realize that each individual has the power to change things? Don't you realize that each of you can make this world better in some way? If everyone in the world "has" to be right, we are in bigger trouble than any of us thought.
Some of you rail against those that don't believe in homosexuality or abortion or whatever and you can't even see that you can't give the same respect you are giving to a whole group to someone you are in a conversation with.
Maybe I'm just getting old. I used to think people of all intellects, education, etc., could have a conversation about things. Now, it's reason, logic, strawmen, red herrings, and the real issues are buried between the accusations of you aren't debating according to my standards. Well, I am not as educated as some of you. I am not as intelligent as some of you. So what? Does that make you of a master race or something?
Words can hurt. Words can inflict deep cuts. Just because you are typing something on a screen and are not actually in front of the person you are "talking" to does not mean they have no feelings.
To anyone that I have offended in the slightest or made you angry or hurt your feelings, please forgive me. I am ashamed to say that I know I have done some of this myself.
Setanta, I will always be very grateful to you for telling me to get help immediately when I was bitten by that spider and for the thread you started.
To everyone that has ever shared with me, I thank you from the bottom of my heart. I hope I carry these lessons with me forever.
ROFLMBO! Abandoning my pride?! Good Lord! If my pride meant that danged much to me I would have probably committed suicide a long time ago. Geesh!
Abandoning my pride? Are you kidding me?
Let me put it this way, if my pride meant that much to me that I could not face people on the internet because I did a stupid and emotional thing, then I highly doubt I would have survived bigger problems in my life.
