Momma Angel wrote:dlowan,
There is one thing that I would like for you and everyone else to understand. I do know why you are upset. Of course I know.
I was highly ticked off at Setanta when he accused me of recruting people for my organization and in trying to innundate A2K with other Christians. I surely will admit that. You see, I have this thing about the truth. I don't mind standing up to it. I relish standing up to it.
I had to sit down last night and ask myself why is it so important that they know that I am not lying to them? For that matter, why have I always been so concerned about anyone believing me when I tell them something is true?
Well, it took me quite awhile to figure it out but I did. So, if nothing else, I learned something about myself. When my father first started molesting me I told my mother he was coming into my room at night. She confronted him. He told her I must be dreaming. She accepted it. Then before she got remarried I caught my stepfather and sister in bed together. I told my mother. He told her something, I don't remember what. The point is, she believed him and my sister. So, perhaps it does spark something in me when I am telling someone the truth and they don't accept it. That is why I never am afraid to offer whatever backup I have for what I say or do.
I will admit there are a couple of posters on here that I may think behave in a pretty evil manner because of what they post. I will not deny that.
I was in conflict about quite a few others because the more I got to know them through A2K the more complete the picture was of who they appear to really be. I do have strong faith in God but it doesn't mean I don't have questions about things. I would bring up the questions so I could get the answers.
I am very sorry that anyone got hurt by this in any way. I can only tell you that I did not come to A2K with an agenda other than to find out why people were mocking God the way they were. I think that is pretty evident throughout all my posts. I have been consistent with what I believe and have even come to accept a different way to look at an issue or two.
Again, I am so sorry that anyone was hurt or offended by what I did. I cannot tell you that I am sorry I did it at all because I am not. I'm telling you the truth about the situation. If you do not accept that, I can certainly understand why. If you do accept it, then I am grateful, but I will not admit to doing something I did not do.
I am not in the least hurt, MA.
I shall repeat part of my post in another thread, to which you did not respond: (
http://www.able2know.com/forums/viewtopic.php?p=1824738#1824738 )
(I am in normal type, quotes from MA in italics.)
If you want to be "left to what I believe or feel" you are likely going about it the wrong way by debating the issue in a forum such as this.
You keep saying you are being picked on.....some have certainly been rude to you, but you are NOT being picked on, you are being debated with.
And this is exactly why I am feeling baited, dlowan. I have made this comment to someone and it seems to have found it's way to the surface. That's fine. I made the comment. I stand by it. Yes, I believe there is a spiritual warfare going on. However, I don't know to what extent it is. And yes, I do believe that for some (and Doktor S, forgive me but you have professed yourself as a Satanist so I would have to say that you apply) there is a spiritual warfare going on. But, even if that is the case, it doesn't mean I have to be cruel or nasty to anyone because of it.
I have in private conversations said things about others in frustration or anger, yes. I won't deny that. It doesn't make it right, but I have done it. So, if there is anything else you want to ask if I think or have said or whatever, lay it out there, dlowan. I have no problem with addressing it.
I am not sure by what criteria you consider a public web site to be "private conversation".
Here is a fact.
What you write on a public website is not private conversation.
I remain interested in whether you believe you are in some sort of crusade here against the forces of evil and the devil?
This is relevant to a "christian whoppers" thread since I do not think that is how you have presented yourself here.
I am especially intrigued as to whether you believe you are on the right side in a war against we evil folk, because it does not really go well with your hurt complaints that people do not respect your opinions, does it?
Seeing us as tools of the devil is a tad suggestive that you do not have respect for our beliefs, does it not?
I don't see that as an especial problem if you are honest (most people think some watered down version of this about their ideas, but mebbe most can at least laugh at it?) though I, of course, think it daft....so it goes....
Nimh has captured my quarrel with you here:
http://www.able2know.com/forums/viewtopic.php?p=1830584#1830584
There is no need to dramatise it as hurt feelings and such.
I simply think it very dishonest, and it irks me.