@porkpiehat,
u r showin how the absurdity of not recognizin else existence in such obvious conditions of objective life is due to ur principal will to possess smthg as if u cant but mean being more urself as the translation of ur existence sense being real
that is why u r seekin a more absurd argument to explain the absurdity of never recognizin normally else before u, in all logics self is due to the recognition of else so immediately a self sense get back meanin not being that being
so u gave the reason without knowing the true answer, the majority of people dont want anything in principle of being, but of course if the need of smthg is too big then slavery is on and the person believe anything without meanin to believe just to feel better only
when u dont want anythin as a condition of being, which i repeat is the normal fact of nothing base just reality exist always without particular other reason then reality, then u cant ever doubt else existence when it is the only fact, while soon u become someone from ur own reality constancy but u feel stuck of havin to keep else first that dont recognize urself existence, barely simply reality recognitions that everyone share
so it is the opposite end to what u claim being normal, for u it is normal that u cant recognize but ur existence while to me and others normality is that u can barely recognize ur existence with all else existence that u must recognize when u do not mean particularly anything
i told u intellect is a liar seekin to abuse else existence like gods from knoweldge of true existence being an absolute fact so the ambition to act free possessor of smthg positive out of that knowledge abuse, so the mean to stay within urself only as living ur willin end