How to get closer to God?

Hello everyone!

I'm 20 years old and going to college now. I have a tougher financial situation, especially due to coronavirus and financing my college.
I am a Christian and coming from mostly Christian family. When I was young I was kinda problematic. I had bad grades, i picked on fights and stuff, etc.. We had a lot of animals at home (cats, dogs and farm animals) and I was very fond of them. One day I lost my dog somewhere in the village. He was gone for quite some time. I searched for him everyday, asking people around, searching the woods, the road. I was desperate. I really loved that dog. One day I was coming home from school and I told God: Please, bring my Lenny back home and I will pray to you everyday. As I came home, I checked the stable and there he was lying in hay playing with a bone. I was so happy back then. I kept my promise to God and even now 8 years later. I still talk to him. The problem is though, I kinda cant get closer to Him. I have small issues with gaming addiction and very often show egoistic and cynical behaviour. Unlike my mother and sister who are humble to this very day. I try to do good despite my behaviour. I help my family and neighbours. I am not generally a bad person. It just feels like I dont really have to trust him anymore. I dont want to lose my faith cuz I'm still grateful for what He has done for me. I would appreciate if anyone could tell me his or her opinion about this.

Just my opinion, but first, define your god and make certain the entity exists. For example, do you seriously buy the three-for-one offer, virgin birth, miracles and other nonsense? Why does this entity want to be worshipped? Have you considered that if you were born and raised in India you would take being a Hindu just as seriously?! There is obviously no Abrahamic god.

Separate your addiction and other issues from your superstitions and use a professional counsellor if you need help in dealing with them and your behavior. Addiction and unwanted behaviors are real problems and nothing to do with gods or religion. Feeling "close to" a god (or any other superstition) isn't a sensible way to help you change your behaviors or cope with addictions. Understanding motivation, how to change behaviors and how to control cravings works.

"Jesus" may not have existed. Secular scholars agree the Christ myth was probably based on an individual, but there is no conclusive proof. So Jesus didn't teach any modern person anything. Christianity grew later. Read the history of it. When people talk of "the teaching of Jesus" they mean what Christians "teach" or opine.

Our behaviors determine whether we are good or bad. Good behaviors are what make us good people - and successful ones.

Just my opinion, but first, define your god and make certain the entity exists. For example, do you seriously buy the three-for-one offer, virgin birth, miracles and other nonsense? Why does this entity want to be worshipped? Have you considered that if you were born and raised in India you would take being a Hindu just as seriously?! There is obviously no Abrahamic god.

Separate your addiction and other issues from your superstitions and use a professional counsellor if you need help in dealing with them and your behavior. Addiction and unwanted behaviors are real problems and nothing to do with gods or religion. Feeling "close to" a god (or any other superstition) isn't a sensible way to help you change your behaviors or cope with addictions. Understanding motivation, how to change behaviors and how to control cravings works.

"Jesus" may not have existed. Secular scholars agree the Christ myth was probably based on an individual, but there is no conclusive proof. So Jesus didn't teach any modern person anything. Christianity grew later. Read the history of it. When people talk of "the teaching of Jesus" they mean what Christians "teach" or opine.

Our behaviors determine whether we are good or bad. Good behaviors are what make us good people - and successful ones.

I kept my promise to God and even now 8 years later. I still talk to him.

I dont want to lose my faith cuz I'm still grateful for what He has done for me.

I try to do good despite my behaviour. I help my family and neighbours.

I kinda cant get closer to Him.

Hi SkydropBill.
As for your 1st paragraph, please read Matthew 6:25-34. God will take care of your financial needs.
The news is even better for the rest of your post. God answered your prayer concerning your dog. He loves you and has blessed you very much as His child. He promises to always be with you no matter what the circumstances you face. God has blessed you with every spiritual blessings. You are secure in Jesus.
Just keep on seeking to get to know God better and better through Bible Study and prayer (prayer is talking to God).
Jesus has done it all to provide your salvation. Just relax and rejoice in our God.