@NealNealNeal,
You will not like it... but here is my credo:
I believe Jesus was not a god and not (literally) the son of God, but simply a man, who saw the world as well as Jewish religious leaders as corrupt, lost, estranged from God.
I believe he was trying to usher in the visions of Daniel and others: the coming of a messianic figure, the "Son of Man".
I believe he was never completly certain to be that figure. That'd be why he always spoke of the Son of Man in the third person.
I believe he viewed the Son of Man not as a traditional king of the Jewish people who would fight for the liberation of Israel from foreign rule, but as a sort of prophet who would summon an army of angels or some other big celestial kaboom that would settle the score and establish no less than the Kingdom of God on earth. As in Daniel.
I believe that's what he was trying to do on that cross: provoke God to action, to save him from death and the world from sin, in the hypothesis that he was indeed the Son of Man and that God would not have allowed the Son of Man to die so miserably; He would do something big.
I believe he died on that cross, for good (I don't believe in resurection), thinking he had failed. That's why he's reported to have said, dying:
Father, why have you forsaken me?
He believe his tragic death achieved something. The scandal of his death did not force God to action but it did spring a new religion.
I believe this man changed the world, for the better.
I believe his message is good, but his followers often betray it.