False admiration ?

Earlier today after zapping from some numberphile videos on youtube I just learned with shock John Nash and his wife Alicia Nash had died in an horrible car accident. It was a deeply disturbing emotional moment for me but then I was confronted with thinking about how much of my emotion could be legitimate once I know nothing of maths aside pseudo grasping some very basic concepts of philosophy of maths...I forced myself out my emotional state out of indignity. It dawn on me the vacuity of my sense of loss...how can someone claim to admire something they don't fully understand ? There is nothing worse then false admiration from afar promoted by pop science Hollywood movies...the fact of the matter is that I can never fully appreciate the loss of John Nash and yet I couldn't help but feel a deep sorrow when I got the sad news.