@rosborne979,
Quote:@Leadfoot,
Leadfoot wrote:
"I once questioned God about the apparent unfairness of the blatant clues of a creator available from science to today's people (Big Bang, DNA, etc) that were not available before."
You've mentioned exchanges like this before including one which was quite dramatic for you (the experience of feeling a world without god). I assume you are speaking metaphorically about speaking to god, right? Or do you actually hear a voice or something?
My words to God were metaphorical only in the sense that I didn't actually verbalize the thoughts. I assume God can hear those without sound being required.
There was only one occasion when I actually heard a voice but that too was probably 'all in my head'. But I did perceive them as clearly spoken English words. I was either dead or almost dead at the time (because I wanted to be). I'll even tell you what they were. They were: "I will tell you". (At the time, There was a question I wanted the answer to that I was unwilling to live without)
I did not expect more words, I assumed he would skillfully lead me to discover the answer myself as he had done every time before. Not that I had not tried already, as I said, I was ready to die in frustration of my inability to find it before. I think it was about two weeks later that he made good on his word. I did discover it on my own but it was only by using the tools and clues he had given me in the years before that. I know that sounds nebulous but there is no way to make the answer make sense to you without knowing my life history before that. It was just what
I needed though and I couldn't have guessed it without those experiences.
You asked about the concrete results I got from following 'internal clues'. I didn't specify them because they too can be dismissed as coincidences so I don't expect they will convince anyone. One that causes me to shake my head all the time is the litteral way one of the promises made by his son was fulfilled in my own life.
I was 44 at the time, working as an engineer and doing ok financially but I had started writing a book about 'life, universe and everything' some years before and wanted to spend more time on it. I could not give it the attention it needed while holding down a job so I asked God if the promise that if we put seeking him first he would give us all the things we needed for our earthly existence. (I think it's in Matthew). I felt that effort to define it, find the words and write it down was my effort to seek him. It was all I wanted to do.
How I ended up a year later as the CEO of my own successful company that required very little of my time and with very little effort still mystifies me. I quit my job at Lockheed Martin and spent virtually all my time on writing and research from then on. OK, full disclosure, I play a lot too.
The promise goes on to say something like, ' see if I will not pour you out a blessing more than you can hold' proved equally true. I don't know what to do with it all.