Look.. I'm dead no mattet what. I feel I've seriously nothing to live for.
People mention counseling, etc else really don't remember. Yes, I love the thoughts more than anything. God. knows I am not at all intending to aggravate, piss one off, etc else.. it is not at all my intent to show my feelings. Do forgive me for I am not able to control myself.
I'm a mess. Scattered.
Words. Me sharing words is helping me with my situation right now. One day, I've prayed my mental situation will be better than what it is now.