as the day goes by, I get younger and more nimble, and if all goes well, by evening, becoming almost childlike in my pursuits, not wanting to go to bed, to start back over old...
Fri 14 Oct, 2011 11:33 pm
The ages five and seventeen come to mind and I think that's because I feel much as I did at both those ages: really excited and hopeful about what was just about to change in my life and looking forward to the next step.
When I was five, I was starting school and I really, really liked it - I couldn't wait to go everyday and learn whatever it was new that we were going to learn.
When I was seventeen, I had been accepted to the only college I'd applied to and wanted to go to and I was just waiting to graduate and go start the next phase of my life in North Carolina.
It was AWESOME! It didn't let me down.
Now, both my kids have finished school and my visa expires next year so I'm looking at all the options available to me.
I could try to renew my visa and continue teaching at the prison or I could try to get a teaching job somewhere else in the world and experience something new.
Both scenarios really appeal to me. In fact, I almost hope the decision is made for me - as in if they won't renew my visa- that'll tell me that I have to go somewhere else, because otherwise I'll find it really, really hard to make the decision on my own.
I'm still very healthy and energetic - so it feels like there aren't any closed doors to me. Everything lies ahead and I feel that I'm just waiting for it to unfold with hope and optimism - same as I felt when I was five and seventeen.