sometime sun wrote:
Do you fear your ego?
Do you trust your ego?
I've been pondering the nature of the ego. It's a name for a superficial aspect of a person. It implies that there's a deeper part.
"Nature" of ego suggests it has a predetermined design?
Which may suggest it has its own commandments, morality, character, personality, good and evils?
What of ego sacrifice or martyrdom?
"superficial" suggests it is the judged not the judger.
The starlet not the script?
The valued not the valuer?
The sin not the sinner?
What of the ticket holders?
"aspect" suggests it is a consideration or an appearance?
It has a face?
Do we make it up or does it make us up?
What of the tangibilities or sciences?
What of the prophets of ego?
This image came to me that the ego is made of resistance... but not a one time resistance, but a recurring thing, like frames of a movie seem to make up a continuous stream, the ego is made of frames that merge into a sense of "me."
Ego is learned behaviour?
Ego can be controlled by the level of screen time?
Ego is familiar repetition exposure or possibly stranger sensationalist burial?
Can the ego be cremated or resurrected?
What I mean by resistance is saying "no" to this or that. "Me" is built out of the unique ways I reject stuff in my world. See what I mean? By rejecting, myself is defined. If I said yes to everything, there would just be this flowing experience of life.
Our identity is forged by what we restrict more than what we accede.
Our no is heavier then our yes.
Our denial scars deeper than heals our acceptance.
A lesson learned is by what is wrong more than what is beneficial.
Yes I think I see.
We are shaped by our restrictions more than our addictions?
What exactly are we addicted to when we say we are addicted to our ego?
Is the ego a pleasure centre?
A rejection is a forever battle rather than acceptance being a closure.
We may always suspect our denial if we have not experienced the failure and destruction first hand.
We know our experience because of the boundaries set by the refusal rather than ever a free ranger of a beggar.
Does the ego beg or entreat where as the persona has learned to survive when in famine or feast.
What is the test, the fed or the starving?
Can we starve the ego to the extent it does what the persona chooses as its taste?
Can the ego be bribed?
Or is it the extorter?
Can we con the con artist?
Ego isn't good or bad anymore than a bird is good or bad. It's a form of life. It's the part that allows our sophisticated social interactions. Through that we come together in a way no other species does, coordinating our dreams so that doorways are open to our potential.
Is the ego our pet monster dragon?
Could it not be conditioned to be our pet warrior hero?
Or is the warrior the subduer of the monster?
Are the social inadequate egoless?
Again then surly the ego has needs and aversions?
Is it the ego that dreams for us?
Is the ego our subconscious?
Is subconscious the seeking of desires or the separation of our destructions?
What part knows up best, the part we act from unthinkingly or the part we restrain thoughtfully?
(I could have made a whole deck out of this but restrained)
To the extent the ego causes suffering, that means there's too much resistance. Life is asking for a little unwinding of judgement. The antidote to judgement is understanding.
The antidote of need is indulgence?
What do you think?
I have no idea so far from this shape of the discussion.
The only thing and one liner I had prepared was,
"I don't want to be imprisoned for a crime I did not commit."
But there is a huge back story to this I will get into some time soon if I can enlist myself and attention again for the ego cause.
I scatted through this one and did not really concentrate enough.
Is it the ego that wants to be heard so will try and say something noticeable or the ego that just wants to say any old thing for the reason to speak to be noticed?