I almost woke up - from life!

Bill Gates, former head of MicroSoft, he's non christian, I don't see any relation of success, intelligence and christianity? Infact I only see pedophiles and wars in the wake of christianity.

Wrong diets (lack of D vitamine), stress, skitzophrenia ..etc can cause hallusinations which mistakenly are taken for divine signs.

I've looked into that too, but this hallucination was controllable - it was like a lucid dream. I believe that people suffering from schizophrenia cannot control their delusions. I was definitively not stressed at the time. I know why I had a hallucination - but the point is of my post is not to find why I had a hallucination, the question is whether you know of any literature on the theme that I mentioned in my story. I'm not sure what Bill Gates has got to do with anything that I've mentioned before, nor has Christianity got to do with anything that I've said previously. Non-the-less, thank you for your reply, I do appreciate it.

I began remembering various writings by different authors on the topics of GOD and spirituality. One of the topics I remember was based loosely on the theme that we all belong to a higher consciousness and that the universe was created by something "higher" in force. Soon after these streams of thoughts, I experienced a hallucination and I saw little streams of light coming from the cracks in the wall made from.

I'm sorry that my English isn't so good and sorry for the lengthy post, I am looking for answers and opinions. I will try to explain my story in full detail the best I can and I will do my best to answer any questions that you have for me. Thank you, Mish.

Sitting in a hammock one morning I realized once again that life is simply just a cycle of life and death. This is theme that I find myself thinking about quite often and is nothing unusual to me. After the one thought came a stream of other thoughts that finally lead to something beyond what I can explain or recall experiencing in my whole life. The next few paragraphs are what the streams of thoughts were which lead to a paranormal event.

The first thought that came to me that morning was; what happens between the time-span of the human cycle of life and death is what people call "life" and life as we know it is a perception of a "physical" world that we call Earth. Earth is nothing more than a memory by a higher force - read on.

The next stream of thought was: we as humans take up role playing in our daily life, wearing masks on different settings. We are constantly creating "worlds" in which we play different roles - the husband, the boss, the child. We can choose to be whatever role we want to play in life and often we have multiple roles per day - creating so many worlds within ourselves.

After that, I began remembering various writings by different authors on the topics of GOD and spirituality. One of the topics I remember was based loosely on the theme that we all belong to a higher consciousness and that the universe was created by something "higher" in force. Soon after these streams of thoughts, I experienced a hallucination and I saw little streams of light coming from the cracks in the wall made from bricks.

Within that second, I realized something beyond what I've ever thought - The exact same way that we can create thoughts and memories or dream about things (these conscious-streams are manifestations of different "worlds" - because worlds are memories), something higher has created our universe in the same way. As in we are living in a conscious being which has created a memory of this universe. Here is the interesting part. As soon as I realized that when we DIE, we return to the god-like consciousness, I felt as if I was given the opportunity to awaken. I was presented with the opportunity to wake up from life, become conscious and be connected with the higher conscious.

Before I continue, I would like to hear some of your opinions on what you think about the experience I have written above. Also do you know any books which mention something along the lines of humans and life existing because of a memory created by someone/something higher in force.

Upon such rubish all metapysical philosophy stands... You tell me your feelings and I will tell you mine... Life is not a cycle of life and death... Life is a continuous chain of life, and that chain is unboken in all life back to the first primitive strand of dna...When you die you die, goodbye...If your forms of relationship work, and you are fit, you will leave a link of the chain of life behind when you die... That is the hope you get...

Let me tell you what your are trying to say about worlds... We all live in forms of relationship... Every form is a structure, and every relationship has a structure, and it is through these forms of relationship which are often multiple and overlapping that we survive, and all of human progress involves changes of forms of relationship, as when people get divorced, or revolt, or as, when the cave man moved from a cave to a tent... And we have our false forms too, that we often share, like religion, or spirituality that do us about as much good as harm, but, the relationship keeps the old form alive even when it does no one any actual good...Some forms are a feel good machine...You tickle it, and you laugh... And all of your insights are illusions, but life is full of them, and what it takes to weed out the illusions from the true vision is real philosophy, logic where it is needed, and sense when it will help...

But, hang on, and some one will straighten you out, or get you off the acid...

The next stream of thought was: we as humans take up role playing in our daily life, wearing masks on different settings. We are constantly creating "worlds" in which we play different roles - the husband, the boss, the child. We can choose to be whatever role we want to play in life and often we have multiple roles per day - creating so many worlds within ourselves.

I felt as if I was given the opportunity to awaken. I was presented with the opportunity to wake up from life, become conscious and be connected with the higher conscious.

So why did you not take the opportunity?
That is, why do we always return to this
physical world, rather than remain in the non-corporeal world of
the mind and pure consciousness?

A question that regards the physical world; Why over-populate a planet, and why create life in a physical world, if that world is suffering? Our race does not even help the physical quality of the planet Earth. If our race doesn't benefit the planet that essentially housed and gave birth to us, then in this exact moment in the cycle of our civilization, how can we say it is important to have children?

It sounds as though you had a brief dimethyltryptamine experience though I don't think you are as ticktockman described a genuine psychonaut as you did not mention using any 'psilocin rocket fuel'

It sometimes makes me ashamed of being a human being.

I find it interesting that dimethyltryptamines are endogenous to the human brain.

...why would we stay?

Any other books that relate to the experience?

hi mishmish-welcome to the forum

the fear is natural-it is certainly instilled in us, but not by corporations. i read that even the highest of masters and gurus will feel a sense of fear at the moment of death, even being lucid and knowing there is nothing to fear-because if that wasnt inbuilt into us, none of us would be here...why would we stay?

i was just thinking this morning that i have no hope of reward in paradise, because it would be boring. i suppose i could say that i should give god more credit who would find some way to occupy us in a paradise where we had to stay forever. but still i thought if there are no challenges or opportunities and in fact no dualities of success/failure, beauty/ugliness, nothing to prefer or avoid...what would we do? everything would be perfect, nothing to build or create...

but then i thought if this world isnt actually worthless because of all those things it has that paradise cant have...well by now i forgot what i thought next. but it had something to do with making this world not as worthless as i once thought it was, and wondering if there could ever really be anything better, no matter how much i have complained about it in my life. maybe if we just learn how to work it right...

but that happy peaceful feeling during those kind of trips doesnt seem boring, does it...i guess we will have to wait and see a while longer...

Before I continue, I would like to hear some of your opinions on what you think about the experience I have written above. Also do you know any books which mention something along the lines of humans and life existing because of a memory created by someone/something higher in force.