@sullyfish6,
The mistakes I am carrying with me all my life are the mistakes I made when I was a teenager, while I was good at school, I gave up study to join the cools, and get myself in trouble and was labeled as one of the useless ones in school. One day we were in big trouble, someone was hurt but it wasn't me causing this but I was near the person when it happened. After that, I decided to turn my back from the cools to be a good person. That's one mistake.
When start working, I found myself quite inadequate doing things as I forgot all about my intellectual side of me. I made lots mistakes when I try to learn to do the job. I lost my confidents as a result I couldn't get the job done right. Now all the can remember about those experience are the mistakes rather the skills I have learnt. I have now a degree holder but I can't bear with mistakes. Those memories of the time when I made those makes are quite vivid to me all the time and as a result I can't think right and function right thought I am now well train to do certain job well.
College grade shows I am capable of doing thing but I can't feel it at all. Rationally, I think this is ridiculous, but my heart is not telling me the same thing. This really hurt.
Another one,