@JPLosman0711,
Heidegger speaks to you, 'Be'-ing. You
“feel no need to read” because you know this. When you read
Being and Time you are returning to your 'self'. The 'rough patches' you speak of are when you 'look in the mirror' and get 'overwhelmed' with 'Be'-ing, then you turn and hightail it out of there.
When you read
Being and Time, you force your 'self' to face those moments of 'looking into the mirror' ('Be'-ing). The 'rough patches' you refer to don't happen in the next reading because you have already 'faced' them and have resolved them for your 'self'.
I am on page 159 of
Being and Time in the middle of my 74th reading. The 'rough patches' don't happen as much as they did in the past and when they do it's because I bumped into something I haven't uncovered before.
For instance, I recently (a few pages ago) realized that the traditional way of addressing philosophy (academia) doesn't work because traditional philosophy skims over the top of the subject matter and avoids getting to the bottom of it by turning what is being talked about into 'things' (concepts) that everybody already understands (more 'fleeing in the face of'). Since the concepts are already understood there is no reason to dig in. However, if you do dig in and get to the bottom of it, you discover that 'you' (who you really are) are
in the truth when you get to the bottom of it. Let me restate what I just said. When you uncover what's at the bottom of it all, you discover who you are.
If you 'skim' over the top of everything by using concepts to represent, you never get to the bottom of it all and you never find out who 'you' really are.
There is no illusionary self. What you're referring to is where you go when you 'flee in the face of' 'Be'-ing.
Also, I have noticed that you speak in dualities most of the time as if there is this other 'entity' that sometimes represents you.
Let me be very clear about this. There is only 'you' 'Be'-ing. Sometimes you're heading towards 'Be'-ing and sometimes you 'flee in the face of' 'Be'-ing and hide in the world.
In either case, there is only 'you' 'Be'-ing, making choices.