@bathsheba,
Pulling up a chair for some whine and cheese..
Well, actually, I have my own version of Sangria too, a mix of white wine and grape juice on ice.
You disappeared, Bathy, and we were all worried. Not to berate you, but to say we are paying attention, just here.
You might, or might not, like to get together with a local b/c group of women going through the same thing. You can probably find some kind of info about local groups online. I didn't do that but have friends who swear by it. Not only did they find support, but information on a lot of issues.
On your husband, I'm guessing he'll be fine. Keep talking, or, if not talking, just being.. just being together. Don't close him out. (I say, listen to me, hah, I didn't have a husband when I went through my version of this, what an expert.)
This time is some kind of horrible but it also can have richness.