@mismi,
Thanku Mis - some days feel so so good!
I was talking with someone today - telling them about what had happened with the consultant (heh - still can't quite say that conversation out loud yet) - anyhoo - one of things the consultant did say was that when my hands get really bad they can put artificial joints in (which sounds horrendous but really isn't, in fact it's verra easy and has excellent results) - when I said this to the person they said, you know, this is the rest of your life - operations and cr@p like that.... and I said, well it "could" be, not "is" - but quite honestly I have it easy compared to many and so as long as I focus on the positive, then I can do it.
Now when I'm having a bad day - it's hard to think of the good things - but today, what I thought was going to be a bad day, because I was so rattled thismorning (and it could still all go t!ts up) and hadn't slept last nite - turned out to be a good day - so...... bonus.
Little things like putting my feet in my old, old boots - well, it really does make all the difference to me - I don't feel quite so.... redundant. Oh - LOVE MY BOOTS!