I sure have. And I think you've made a lot of progress on here, too. Your poems are a lot more 'freeflowing' or effortless now, not sure how to describe it. That's probably the hardest part, too. To convey what you want, but make it seem like no work went into it (I mean...you know what i mean, right?). You do that great.
I have my ups and downs - looking back at some of my stuff - I do cringe now and then thinking - ****... wish i could go back and take that one out - it's just terrible - or whatever
there are a few i can't even bare to read they're so bad (other threads)
The last one i wrote here, however ... i'm pleased with.
It was spontaneous and often i like those ones best
hey, thanks for stopping by
peace
E
Brother......I know what you mean, I know what you mean.
yeah - those are the real killers
i mean, it's not like i can tear those ones out or warn people not to bother reading them ....
I kinda just want to forget they exist, actually
hey, we al have ups and downs. but you're having a big up right now then.
dagmaraka - thanks for your comments here and on the death diary
peace,
Endy
Just a Dream
I dream of you
and you smile at me
with eyes so bright
Like a tiger's
Glittering
in the still of night
Lips sweet with tenderness
as budding roses
sun-kissed
I stand powerless
I long to hold you
In my arms
Enfold you
quietly
Yet it would be
enough
to speak
to walk beside you in the street
and smile at everyone
we meet and laugh
in a warm caress of happiness
I feel your fingers touch mine
A moment sublime
I can dream, can't I?
Endymion 2007
Constantly I miss You
I miss you, constantly
And God it feels so bad
Like every pain I ever had
I miss you every day
Like a lonely dream
that's faded far away
I miss you in my heart
Deep down inside some
hidden part of me
You see?
It's true
Constantly
I miss you
Like the earth beneath a rock
must miss the sun
Like leaves blown from the trees
might long to be again as one
It's a lonely place to be
Missing you constantly
Endymion 2007
Untitled Love 4
I waited to see
If I looked up
would she be
there?
But I can find her nowhere
She has really gone
it seems
Living only in my dreams
And it hurts
because I know it has to be
It hurts because
this love inside
is killing me
She was so tender
like a sunshine kiss
So clever
She took me back to
happiness
But her leaving has left me
hollow
Ashamed of selfish sorrow
Lost in nothing and nowhere
Disclosing rare love
leads only to despair
You see, I feel her
She's like a colour or a smell
She hovers all around me
but for her
I am not real
Nor
ever even
touched her
Never
No
not ever
I never touched her heart
I have failed her
and so we part
Endymion 2007
For the bravest
Oh baby
I miss you
miss the days
you laughing always
smiling
showing me all the places
all the different tragic faces
little Chinese babies
in your slender arms
smiling into each others eyes
*
*
Oh baby
I miss you
miss the love
I miss your touch
Your hands on my back
and in my hair
healing the tension
our silence serene
tracing each other's journey
across folded maps
that took us back
and got us talking
outside under trees walking
*
*
Oh baby
I miss you
I miss your kiss
The hungry press
of your lips
your heart in your breath
and the tenderness
*
*
Oh Baby
I miss you
miss the schemes
the hopes we had
and dreams
you my wife
I shall miss you the longest
I'll miss your soul
the bravest heart
I've ever known
and the strongest
Endymion 2007
Muse
At the very end of the path
I stand looking out
across dipping fields
to distant
darkening hills
that harbour ancient trees
and crickets heralding the night
hidden in the long thin grass
the dragonflies
as delicate as blue glass
A last blackbird sings
majestic melody
that ends so shrill it seems
I smell the first trace of autumn
patiently approaching
The setting sun
is sorrowfully casting
its ebbing light
dusk pink and hazed
I wish you were standing
here beside me now
leaning on this familiar gate
watching the meadow turn
towards its moonlit sleep
Just to look on you in this light
to see the sun setting slowly
in your dreaming eyes
such an intimate thought
leaves me weak
and makes me sigh
As day fades
I walk away to face the night
leaving you where
the softest breeze
can caress your shining hair
watching a sun that never sets
but holds you there
in its light
Endymion 2007
Take Me There
I am so very tired
But the warm, English sun
sooths me
after many nights of dreaming
You are here with me now
So peaceful by the river
I can relax with you, somehow
although I sit turned away
Feeling you this close, makes me ache
I am so very tired
that when you pull me
back into your arms and support me
I close my eyes and try to rest
but not to fall asleep
pressed
against your breast
I can feel you gently breathing
we share the same feeling
Everything's alright
and God, I love the way you hold me tight
Woman, you are too kind
Your love unwinds my lonely mind
Woman, you are too rare
You cast your spell
You take me there
Endymion 2007
A Morning Kiss
The moon is smiling
as the sky turns
all around the sounds
of waking Earth
A secret love
hidden, held inside
I watch the day creep
slowly to my side
I know you are there
somewhere
alive
watching the horizon
the early sunrise
Waiting for daylight
and that first morning kiss
It sweeps like gold-dust
to play upon your lips
Endymion 2007
Still Here
I'm still here
even if i seem distant
if you need me
I'm still here
even if i seem resistant
it's true
if you need me
I'm still here for you
Endymion 2007
Profanity
Yeah, I'm on the run
I run from love, unworthy
Unlovable
Less than others
Men who have the wit
The charm to captivate lovers
Life is some cheap token
God has spoken
My heart is strong with love
But none must love me
Or end broken
*
Alone is for ever
And I can never forgive
This crazy world of bizarre loneliness
When I feel your love
I sense pure joy
To be wrapped in your love
As a man and a boy
But God is great
In his insanity
And you see
Loving me would be
A profanity
Endymion 2007
Beauty
I want to feel you close
woman, don't you know?
Somewhere in another life
I hear your voice
and then it goes
I long to see you smile
like the sun rising in me
If I were eloquent
and whole
and somehow worthy
I'd whisper how I love you
but this crazy love alone is mine
A hidden dream I carry close
as if to want
must be a crime
To feel your love
like a chaste, romantic score
inside my head
When in your silence
you leave signs
here at my door instead
I search their message
for meaning
You are Beauty
turning on and on
and I?
I am only dreaming
Endymion 2007
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It's All About Love
***************
I sense you close
but girl I miss you
Are you only just a dream?
I still feel
your warm connection
inside of me
How I wish
that I could write you
perfect songs
for who you are
How I wish
that I could sing to you
as I strum this old guitar
How I want to reach inside you
and touch the girl you are
I've discovered you
so slowly
Now I'm afraid to speak
You seem so much the wiser
than the wisest part of me
So you are a woman
and I am born too late
but I hear the girl inside you
calling out
and I want to send her love songs
because love is what it's all about
Endymion 2007
Love Song to a Sad Heart
If I could hold you
in this circle of my arms
And dance you close
underneath the morning stars
If I could love you
and keep you safe from all the pain
If I could let you go
knowing I'd see you again
If I could smile
and see your eyes smile back at me
If I could cross the great divide
your heart might set me free
If I could be with you
for one hour of one day
If I could love and keep you safe
from all the pain
Endymion 2007
The Beast in the Zoo
She spoke to me
through the bars
She wasn't afraid
of The Monster from Mars
My silence did not perturb her
Nor my scars disturb her
Her gentleness lit shadows
A billion stars to sooth the rage
Her human love was healing
Spiritually engaged
I wished that I could hold her close
But I was still caged
And even if she stepped inside
I'd be afraid
I don't know where she is
I haven't seen her
Sometimes I close my eyes
and I dream her
To be near her
Another day
floats empty far away
I sit and view the evening sky
Watch the new moon rise
and I whisper
Her beautiful name
I say it over again
Because I miss her
Endymion 2008
