Help needed on Marlboro contest question II

Hey it could have been worse we could have had as many as 30 or more so 18 ain't bad

now all we have to do is pray that everyone here did better than they did over there...then we can all still go :wink:

well dang it its 1:30 i gotta go to bed....nite nite witty sweet dreams....i cany wait to see what everyone has now lol

Nite nite Horsey sweet dreams

I finally got power and cable on just about one hour ago. We still have no phone service and yes I am still sick. There are still many people without power and the temp. hit freezing last night. The two fatals where trees came down on 2 separate cars happened in the county where I live.

I took the time to read back to see what some of you wrote.

Jeez, deep down, I never thought you were a cruel person. I think I even did post that at one time. At least I was hoping you weren't and I think I was right in that you are not. In fact there was one thing you said about me that I laughed to myself about and thought "you know, jeez is right on that".

Angel, I never thought you would lie to me like you did. I waited all night to hear from you since you said your printer was out of ink. I was going to try to talk you through it since you have never done it before. I sent you an email telling you I was waiting for you and would all night. You came on so quick that night and before I knew it you left before I had the chance to ask you about it and then I lost cable.

Horse, I never expected you to be the devious one and lie like you did. I had no idea you thought so badly of me.

Fluoz, I was never devious, had nothing up my sleeve and did not lie, contrary to what you believe.

Toot toot, I have no observations on what you were up to if anything.

Coon, all you seem to care about was winning this contest.

Bigred, I thought your email jokes were funny. I have no idea if you lied about anything. I think you have a big heart.

Ben, when you were on without horse and toot toot, you seemed so nice. When all 3 of you got together on here you changed.

Skuncle, I have no observations to make about you. You seemed nice.

White, you seemed nice and have a good sense of humor. I did not see anything to lead me to believe otherwise.

Misk, I never got the chance to really know much about you.

Cowlgirly, same goes for you.

Pattiness, same goes for you.

Also, lizzard, I didn't even meet you to that night. So, I can't make any observations about you. My inital reaction was suspicion and I hope you understand why. My gut feeling on you was that you were someone nice. But, then again, look how wrong I was on the others.

As it turns out I never really got to know any of you. I thought I did at least a little until I read back on what you wrote and have now learned how you really feel.

If I left anyone out it is because I have no observation to say about you.

Don't take this wrong, I am sure each and everyone of you have good sides to you. What I don't understand is why the deceit? Why the cruelty?

I am by no means perfect and never claimed to be. In fact I pointed out my faults. I said when my feelings got hurt. I admitted when I was "slow" about something. I did not deceive anyone. I did not lie to my knowledge. I even admitted when I was in the wrong and apologized to some of you. I was just plain me. I never asked to be liked, but didn't expect how cruel some of you would be with no other agenda than to hurt me.

If I am wrong on these observations I would like to hear otherwise just to satisfy my own curiousity and I don't want to say something that someone does not agree with.

I will not post my answers and I DID NOT SEND IN MY ANSWER KIT. You won't be meeting me at the ranch. Maybe I live in a dream world, but I thought it would be so fun if we all made it there and could meet. Now after reading what some of you said I don't want to meet you after all.

I put in twice the amount of work on researching than any of you did. My dog chewed my answers up in case you don't remember. I said I did not have the energy to start over. Some of you encouraged me not to give up. So, I didn't give up. I started over. So, I did it twice and became so exhausted and I am sure that contributed to the fact I got and am still sick. That is my own fault. The mistake I made was to actually believe I got the chance to know some of you. Now I find out I was wrong.

I hope in the future you don't purposely do this again to someone. This is exactly why some people at this time of year (the holidays when you should be happy) see no hope left and commit suicide.
If some of this sounds depressing it is because that is the truth. It is called reality, the real world and what people will do. Read the statistics.

So I hope, yes I still have it, that each of you can at least find it in your heart to do something nice for a complete stranger that appears not to be as well off as you. I think you might be surprised how a small jesture of sincerity can help a person, make them smile and give them a reason for hope.

On the lighter side, I really don't like the spell check button. It may check your spelling, but it keeps it a secret when a word is misspelled and doesn't always let you know. I also think that since this post is so long it should count as at least 25 posts, rather than just one. I am going to go out today around the neigborhood and see if there is anyone that needs anything. Cell phones don't work here because I am in a valley.

No matter how I feel I still wish you all a Merry Christmas.

tth this is what you posted....

Horse, I never expected you to be the devious one and lie like you did. I had no idea you thought so badly of me.

Please tell me what I did...you are my friend and always will be. I dont think badly about you...I kid with you about needing meds and telling you to shudup and thats it...If anyone here has said that I talked bad about you in any other way than meds and the shudup thang its a lie.
There is one person I have talked bad about and thats it...and that person lied to me more than once and no I dont like them....i will be nice and not act as a child but i would never trust that person...i hope not to many others on her have trusted that person eathr....tth you know who that person is i think they put one over on you as well.

Horse, I have to look back and read what it was you wrote that lead me to think this. So, give me a moment to find it and I will show you.

I wish you would tth cuz most likely it was in joking or something....I have never ever thought bad about you....you are prolly one of the only ones on this board that has not tryed to put the screws to someone. How can anyone find anything to bitch at you about....sep maybe them newbies lol

tth i have got to take my kid to work but i will be back....when you find the post please put in on the board so i can see it

This lead me to believe that you lied. The one thing you said was if I went to the Ranch I would want to make everyone happy. Horse, you should know I can't make anyone happy, that is something someone has to do for themselves. So, why the deceit? Do you know how stupid I really feel for believing some of you? I don't think you really do. The one thing I would bring is my computer? Where did that come from? The secret emails between you and some of the others. I just felt after reading all that you guys wrote while I was in the dark (literally) was how stupid you must think I really am.

I wasn't talking about the meds you teased me about or telling me to shudnup. I know that was teasing.

Why are you so sure you have so many right and others have so many wrong? So, how many of you got #99 right? The answer is not Andy's Truckee Diner.

TTH - Glad to see you are OK and the power is back.

Please don't be so hasty to judge. I am still waiting for answers to many of the questions I've asked ... If you honestly go back and look, you have a strong tendency to answer a question with a question ... then something comes up (storm, falling asleep at the computer, etc.) and the question remains unresolved. What am I to think ... It's human nature to question motives when information is lacking. Despite all this I maintained patience and some humor ( ) and still consider you a friend and caring human being.

If you want to disperse my (small) doubts, continue to be as forthcoming as your first post today.

P.S. - I do hope you stay with us and continue to be a member of this disfunctional family. Maybe they'll do a TV series on us! :wink:

Also, toot toot. You said in a pm to me that I was paranoid and thought people were out to get me. Where did that come from?
I never said that or implied that in any way. I am not writing this to bash you all. I am writing this to let you know how stupid I let you make me feel and that it does hurt to feel that way. I know some of you will say I am too sensitive. Why? Is it because I admit I have feelings and am not afraid to say it. I find it really hard to believe that all of you on here have no feelings what so ever. That you are all just cold and heartless. The last time I checked most humans do have feelings. I just don't hide mine.

I also don't hold grudges. So, I said what I felt was necessary for me to say and life goes on. I am just really disappointed in what I read from some of you. I don't have to live with it, you do.

Also, in case anyone was wondering or cared, I was not that nerd in high school. I had plenty of dates. I was the one no one even tried to hurt or pick on, in fact there were other girls or guys that some of kids picked on because of what they wore or how they looked. I was the one who stepped in and put a stop to it. I stuck up for those that were picked on and no one picked on me. There is a reason for this, but that is a different story and I don't see a need to go into it.

omg tth i said im a horse of a dif color to jeez and that made you think i was bashing you or trying to hurt you? im sorry but i gotta laugh. last time jeez was here i had the pic of me on my mare...now its the one with the poop gun...jeez questioned it and i made a joke....as far as secret emails...me and witty checked our answers that we sent in with each others...and no i dont have Andy's Truckee Diner for 99 :wink: I am sorry if you took anything i said the wrong way but i promise non of it was towards you. And you takin your computer to the ranch as your one thang...if i remember it was witty that said that and she did not say it like it was a bad thang....we know you love your computer o and just for the record me and witty have 18 answers that are not the same. tth you are loved here by many and i dont think anyone here, sep maybe 2, would hurt you in any way.(im not one of the 2 )

If I answered a question with a question it was probably because I wasn't sure what you were talking about.
I did see this that you wrote "Don't know what (removed my real name) problem is and she isn't telling."

I had no idea you thought I had a problem. This is what you wrote to somone else. If you have a question then just ask. The only thing I would never disclose is where I work, anything about my spouse or who the staff on here is. That is all.

There were times you had a question and before I could answer it, you logged off. I even sent you emails with answers to some of your questions.

So what questions do you still have? I am willing to answer what I can and know.

I am not going anywhere. Who else would be here to call you fluoz? That does not count as a question either.

well i guess you have no response to my post....i gotta go help hubby...i will be here just like always tonight at around 9 or 10.

That is not true horse. I do have a response. I kept getting kicked of by the famous ce's.
Horse, there were many times that you, ben and toots were on when I was on also. You would make reference to what my words were on other parts of this site. So, I assumed and you can tell me if I am wrong that you followed me to find the words that I said on the other parts of this site then used them against me to make fun of me.

What I am about to write doesn't necessarily just mean you. I didn't know I had to account for my where abouts on this whole forum. I did go to other areas, either to take a break from the research (instead of going outside to have a cigarette). I played some of the games. I just looked around. I wasn't up to anything other than being tired of just reading info on the west. So, I would go out of this box and see what the other parts of this forum was about.

I really liked coming here. Even though I didn't always feel comfortable knowing that there were some on here that rather I wasn't. There were a lot of times you guys really made me laugh.
Heck, I was late to appointments and even missed some because I was laughing so hard and wouldn't pay attention to the time.

I still think Andy's is the correct answer.....

I also think that this contest is getting to some of us...

Namely: ME!!!

Hey!!! Where is everyone???