Inner Voice Calling Out

I sit and wonder
As I feel the thunder
Within in my inner soul
Letting it be known
I have lost control
Nothing can be done
My sins have taken its toll
Losing everything playing this role
As I lived in fear
The same things I hear
Everything will be okay
I will be thankful one day
But the routine stays the same
As I wish for a different route
The days fade out
My life come closer to an end
Waiting for an answer
That I can comprehend
Don't know who to ask
Because I won't let it stand
Have to make amends
Asking myself how
As I look up
So my eyes may never fall to the ground
For I won't look down
Anticipate demise
SO I can forever stay high
But I still feel confused
For I sit here like a fool
Wondering what to do
Still trying to look up
With my eyes glued down
I look for the mic
Waiting for inspiration to take flight
So I can overcome the night