a poem.... "our tears"

it's raining again.

and i'm wondering
are these your tears or mine??

and i'm sitting at my piano
trying to play the notes on the page
but i can't

my fingers keep wandering
back to our little song we used to play
when we drank


"here we go..
up the road..
to a big-ass
par - ty"

and the tears in my eyes
are making it practically impossible
to read anything

(i don't think i've read anything in months)

and suddenly it's all just too much again
the incredible pain of losing you
which so many times i have tried to push down
comes back up again
as i try to throw up the pain...

and i lie in the shower...

and i try to wash away the pain
scrubbing madly at my skin
desperately wanting it to stop
but all i do is bleed

and i lie in my bed...

and i try to cry away the pain
clinging tightly to my pillow
desperately wishing you were here
but i find i'm all alone

and i lie on your grave....

flowers clutched in my cold hands
wanting to sink into the earth
just to be with you again

and our tears roll down my face...

it's raining again.