THE URGENCY - my first post here!

My hands are raw
from clawing at the arms
trying, desperately, to keep me down.

I pray, I can defeat
this coward which has
crawled deep inside of me.

I struggle to resist
this urgent urge
to escape all those
wanting to smother
and drown me.

No longer, can I allow
myself to be held down
by the hands of anyone.

I strain to break free
from those clutches
pulling me under
and force my weary
head just above water.

I pray, today, I'll find
strength to become
more than the frail shell
reflection of the person
I am today.

I swallow the thick taste
of self-doubt wedged in
my throat and push
myself to the shore
of my emotions and begin
to breathe life again.