I've always been old. I just didn't realize it until I passed 40. Somehow, somewhere, I got the idea that I wouldn't make it beyond that mark. I was impatient and poked my nose into everything. If the foolishness of the world was to be fixed, then I had to do it fast. Believing that I had to cram a lifetime into that span, I was fiercely and foolishly brave. "Live fast, die young and leave a beautiful corpse".
When 40 came and went without my demise, I was first amazed and then relieved to be living in Bonus Time. For a couple of decades there I was really productive -- just played the game. Caring, but not too much, everything seemd to go my way. I ate too good food, drank too much single malt, and began to more deeply ponder the lessons of youth.
Now that I'm retired and in my sixties (09MAR41), I feel like I'm reaping rewards far beyond those I've earned. Life is grand, but if I die today it will be Okay.