Momma Angel wrote:dlowan,
There is one thing that I would like for you and everyone else to understand. I do know why you are upset. Of course I know.
I was highly ticked off at Setanta when he accused me of recruting people for my organization and in trying to innundate A2K with other Christians. I surely will admit that. You see, I have this thing about the truth. I don't mind standing up to it. I relish standing up to it.
I had to sit down last night and ask myself why is it so important that they know that I am not lying to them? For that matter, why have I always been so concerned about anyone believing me when I tell them something is true?
Your self-reflection is admirable. And as always it's terrible to hear such sad stories (and one always does, again and again, horrifyingly).
However, the angry reaction here wasn't as much, or not only, about your putative recruitment of others. I'm guessing its more about your representation of your motivations, in general.
Here, you charmingly posture about how you wouldn't dream of trying to convert anyone or even to make them accept your opinions, for that matter; no, you're merely here for self-edification, for self-improvement, to learn and to ask and listen about other people's takes on things!
Meanwhile, it turns out that on another site you're telling people they all need to join because A2K is a locus of spiritual war, and they need to come harness the Christian fight, form a mighty army for the Lord here on A2K.
Meanwhile, it turns out that you send messages around when a fellow Christian on A2K is in some argument with someone who said there are many contradictions in the Bible, exhorting people to "say a prayer for" the poster who's showing she "is ready to do battle for the Lord" by arguing with that guy/gal. (
here's a link on that one).
On the board, your talk is of how sensitive you are, how you just want to have a careful, empathetic conversation, how you just want to understand. But when you address your Christian forum or send your missives around, Your talk is full of war, ammunition, armor, battle.
Its like two completely different personas!
Thats what feeds the feeling that you're being all but honest and upfront about things - perhaps not even to yourself? I'd wager it would probably even have been more stomachable if you'd just been upfront about your battle/war persona from the start, like RexRed is, instead of always again trying to garner sympathy for your victimised plight when you yourself are, behind the scenes, being all about war and battle yourself.
Then there's the other dimension to the negative reaction you're getting, the one Osso pointed out above.
This is a knowledge site. Though maddeningly stubborn and sometimes narrow-minded some posters may be, all but the fringe loonies at least accept that the playing field on the more serious-minded forums remains about trying rational argument.
When you were challenged about your views and apparently didnt feel able to adequately argue them, however, you went to recruit homies to join the fight instead - and in that language, too (not as in: 'hey, help me out explain this for me', but as in, 'join the army of believers and change this site'). Thats in a different category altogether than occasionally patting a fellow-poster on the back.