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Tue 20 Sep, 2005 12:08 pm
Why doesn't the mind let go of things? What is there left to be learned? If the mind can hold on to this , then what else has to held onto? Life is so chaotic sometimes..not in a bad way..just having its' own ebb and flow. Why do people find comfort in pure silence? why do people find peace within darkness? A room filled with warm and candles flickering softly in the distance of the mind...How do you face your feelings day after day? do you swallow your pride? swallow your fears? or do you become blanketed in them? Life is about experiences and so, then why can't you fully experience life? why must everyone be so afraid? what makes life a little bit safer to face? the comfort of your loved ones around you? your friends, who at least you think are your friends? there you go again, fearing betrayl..yet, i trust my friends...i wish i still had some of them...some of them to fear with everything i had..I wish i had my spirituality back...if i weren't so spiritually numb..what happened? the only comfort? helping others. then just maybe, just maybe i can make life better for those around me..for people in this world. but what about me? what about my pure happiness? for i am happy, but for how long?
Thats very true Lex62589, life is a mystery, no-one knows what the meaning of life is, no-one knows why we are down on earth, no-one knows if there is intelligent life in outer space on mars etc, no-one knows how the solar system was really created, was it by God or by the 'Big Bang', no-one knows what the future holds so you've got to take every chance you get to go out with you're mates or to play football etc with them, so while you're reading this think of the great times you could be having with you're mates, if you don't get out with you're mates then you've got a sad life.
you never realize how much you miss fears of those close to you until you have nothing left to fear. why must everyone be so affraid? thats the million dollar question, lately i've just said what the hell and let go of every fear I have, if something you fear is going to happen worrying about it won't solve anything, if anything worrying will make it worse when it does happen and corrupt everything else, fear is absolutley useless. Never doubt a friend, all you need to do is be aware of hurt and communicate it in a good manner, a friend will try and not do it again but everyone is human, forgiveness
you comments are both true. but, unfortunately, my fears can not be let go for if unleashed would cause even more chaos in my life right now. what i'm afraid of is never being excepted in my family. i know that families are never suppose to shove you away but even though i know they wouldn't forever, they might for awhile. then it would never be the same, the relationship between the family. Fear is useless and only adds stress to life but without fear what can drive alot of peoples' goals? my fears always hold me back from being truly happy. even though, many people would die for what i have, who i have in my life; am i just being spoiled? i hope i'm not. its just that i live with this every day of my life. my fear is nothing criminal or anything like that, nothing bad per say. its a matter of preference and my family has a hard time excepting difference and this is where my fear stems from. not even counting all the things that were going on in my freshman year of high school, it just intensifyed things. Any suggestions? i know i have to wait to tell about my fears to my family here at home, but what can help me with myself?
not going against anything you've said but a suggestion i would say is to try letting go of fear, i've noticed that fears i've had were actually sensed by others and it in turn spurred what they were affraid of, fear is contageous and when you see fear in someones eyes it is easy to assume they see your fear when it isn't yours. Try and not let fears feed from eachother, being fearless and ignorant is a fine line, a very very very fine line. Live happy and try to make others happy. Don't be affraid of your goals, only fear not reaching them, knowing the difference is almost impossible. Exceptance of anything other then you isn't exceptance of you
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