For Neuph: I miss you

I just wrote this. I'm not asking for it to be edited or anything, but feel free to if you like. Mostly, I just wanted to share. This is one of the many things I feel I gotta get out of my system before being able to write his Memorial Piece. It is proving to be very difficult and emotional. This is dedicated to my step-dad who passed away last October.

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I toast to you on Fridays
raising your horrible whiskey to my lips
It makes me laugh
thinking how you beat me to the cheque
every time, every single time.

I've never been a drinker
but oh I drank hard when you left
It would have made you laugh
hearing me slurring my words
every time, every single time.

I miss you so much.
I love you so much.

If you were here right now
I would have only this to say
(and then I would shut up
and share a drink with you):

All I've ever wanted to be
is what you revealed to me
I have always been.
Thank You.
Thank You.
Thank You.