Hello again all, and thanks for all your warm welcomes first of all.
Well it seems I backed out even faster than I joined, didn't I? Maybe better say a bit more this time.
Seems I'm blessed with a rather thorough burn-out, that changed my perspective quite a bit. You can say that I decided to retire (as far as it goes), throughout the winter I kept still and hardly saw or spoke to anyone. I can't hold on to the rat race any more - you know, trying to get a job, fighting for a living, fighting to survive, doing all kinds of things without even knowing if I like them or not.
So I quit, end of last year, not knowing where to begin again. It's like learning to live all over and not knowing where to start.
When I got this invitation from Patty in January, it overtook me a bit. I knew you're all friends and I would meet a warm welcome here, and I missed a lot of you too.
Suppose I needed some time to realize that.
Yesterday when I logged back in, I saw that Fatima10 just joined too, and expressed a feeling of wonder, desorientation even, making me realize that that was my same feeling.
Not because of you all, but because of me. If anything changed it's not the outer world, but mine.
Now that it's Spring and those beautiful blossoms are out, I'm getting out a bit too.
I don't think I'll be involved as much as on Abuzz - as Ethel said before she became Lola, that's history. It'll be more like, I'll listen, enjoy all of you being there, and maybe tell a few stories sometimes.
BTW, I'll be fifty in ten days - anyone remembers how that feels? Meet you in the Aging and Elderly Care