So Here I AM

I wish I could turn back the hands of time
take back everything I said
Hold you in my heart
and fade away

Now i'm here alone
thinking of what i could say
To bring us back to the dream
now miles the other way

CHORUS:
So here I am
fucked up again
Filled with nothing but regret
I can't face you
I wish I could see you
I do want to hold you
But i'm a ******* idiot sometimes
You know i'm an idiot sometimes

I guess this is the last time
you'll ever be around
I know you deserve better
then what was once found

I'm sorry for the feelings
the emotions and the time.
I guess those things
were never meant to be mine

So here I am
fucked up again
Filled with nothing but regret
I can't face you
I wish I could see you
I do want to hold you
But i'm a ******* idiot sometimes
You know i'm an idiot sometimes

While i'm still here waiting for happiness
I know you'll be living your dreams
Nothing is as bad
as everything else seems

I will always run
All I know is to hide
all I am is undone
All I wanted has died