Re: COMFORTABLY NUMB
Setanta wrote:
Have you ever been hungry ? I mean truly hungry--have you ever gone more than two days with nothing to eat ?
Have you ever been lonely ? So lonely that you felt a stranger in every crowd, so lonely you contemplated suicide ?
Have you ever been homeless ? Have you ever been on the road or the street with absolutely no idea where you would land, and whether you would land on your feet ?
Have you ever been broke ? Have you ever truly lived from hand to mouth, not knowing from one day to the next if you could buy food, pay the rent, pay the bills, put five bucks in the gas tank ?
What are you like . . .
. . . are you like . . . me ?
There have been times when I wondered how I was going to pay a bill or buy food. I have always been lucky enough to have family around me who would never let me go hungry or homeless. But, while I have never been alone, I have always been lonely.
And yes, I have contemplated suicide because of it. Even flirted with an attempt at it after I knew I would never have a child of my own. The pills I took for the pain of a hysterectomy made it so easy to sleep because they also took away the pain of my sadness. I tried taking an extra pill one night and then 2 extra pills the next night. Sleeping forever seemed like a wonderful way to escape. I think the only reason I didn't continue was because I didn't want to hurt my family.
