MG, why are you so hard on yourself?? Nobody is perfect... I hate my job, I have no boyfriend, and frankly I have no ambition... but i still love life sooo much!!
Who cares what other people think, screw them and their opinion, see what's gonna happen is someday you are gonna meet a guy and you are going to be so negative about everything that you don't know what you are going to miss
But if you are always pessimistic then everything that happens is gonna keep seeming worse!
You are not going to be here forever, so live while you can... take a chance, a risk... just remember life isn't about the fairy tales...
As you say about these women
Quote:"Id love to have that contrast, crap job, then go to see gorgeous boyfriend but its crap job, go home, watch tv. "
They may have a "gorgeous" boyfriend in your eyes, but what if that is all he is... what is he is abusive or vain. Things aren't always what they appear...
Just don't let things get you down so much.. I look up to the people on this site, so you need to smile damn it!