hello, firstly, i don't know if you have solved your problems. and because of my poor english, i am afraid you can't understand. anyway, i want to answer you questions because i have the similar life experience.
actually, when i was a child, i lived with my grandparents because my parents went out for job, i mean their workplace is really far way from where i live. and they come back home once time a year. my grandpareants are too old to protect me. i dared not to tell anybody when some guys bully me. and i also suffer a lot of worse things. i don’t want to talk that in public. but now, thanks my hardworking in my study, i got a academic qualification and find a well-paid job. i also some guys who want to be my boyfriend
sometimes, you should admit that although most of parents love and respect their children, there are still a good number of possibilitise that your parents really don't love you because of many factors. i know it is miserable to learn that. as i said, i have the similar experience. i ever gone through a long unhappy and sad time
in my opinion, you should go back home even you don't like to do so because you are a child and you have no job to make a living. for you own sake, you should come back home and apologize to your mother if that can make her happy.
of course, i don't think it is a useful way to talk to her about this matter. because i ever tried to do so , but i found it wsa no pointless. they don't care your thoughts and your feelings.
i think the only way to save yourself is to study hard and attend college. i believe that can change your life because it has changed my life.
i am sorry if my answer can't help you. also if you want to talk more, i'd like to talk you with that matter in private