Final Testament

I was having a bad day - need i say more? I edited the end on my blog, since my best friend told me it would scare people. For the record, it's been a while since i felt as bad as this sounds - i just find it comforting to write something truly morbid

Final Testament

I've lost all sense of human pride
Forgotten how to breathe
I'm sick of being on my knees
And asking for reprieve
I'm tired of your false friendship
And excuses for the night
I've given up on being used
I've given up the fight
You didn't want me at the start
I only see that now
With no remaining dignity
I take the final bow
I've served my purpose, gained your aim
All whilst faking this smile
And sold away my mortal soul
While choking down the bile
I guess I was naive to think
That people ever changed
And now depressed and paranoid
I feel like I'm deranged
So now I guess that it is time
For it is clear as mud
To sign my final testament
And coat the floor in blood