I'm aiming at that happy medium. Do you have any advice how to get there? And since I'm a book worm, have any reading suggestions on that topic as well?
You're most likely right. I need a spiritual or emotional stoking to start whatever confidence in my personal confidence fire stove. Did I just butcher that poor metaphor?
Everybody is busy with life I suppose... well most everybody. I can imagine there are some monks living in a monastery in some hard to reach mountain top who aren't ever too busy to find they're way, don'cha think?
The professor of my History of Buddhism class seemed to make that case against the whole idea of monasticism. Did you grow up in a church going family?