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Reply Sun 23 Feb, 2003 10:34 pm
Waves

O, I see, I said,
When she said
It comes in waves.
I sighed a sigh of exhalation.
I know waves.
The sea and me are
Well, part and parcel.
I ride waves
And dive waves,
And even when
One catches me
Not looking,
Knocks me for
A sandy, salty loop,
I stand up again,
Laughing scraped knees and all,
in the waves,
waiting for the next one.

O no, she said
Not those.
More like
Waves of screaming baboons,
Waves of red-eyed Goths,
Waves of sharp-toothed spiders,
Waves of blue assed hooting whackers
all of these around you
in your ears and eyes and mouth.

I sighed.
I sighed a sigh of exhalation.

I am a brother of the baboon,
I am a cousin to the Goth
I love the fuzzy feel of spiders
in my ears and eyes and mouth
And I am a blue assed hooting whacker
So,
Though, the teeth do bite,
And there is blood on the rug,
And pain,
O,
the ache, the knife, the choked off gasp,
I stand up again,
Laughing, scraped knees and all,
In the waves.

Waiting.


Joe Nation
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Phoenix32890
 
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Reply Mon 24 Feb, 2003 01:20 am
From someone who has "been there, done that", your poem hit me like a ton of bricks!
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dlowan
 
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Reply Mon 24 Feb, 2003 02:24 am
Joe - I have just seen a dear frind through it - what a poem!
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Joe Nation
 
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Reply Mon 24 Feb, 2003 06:50 am
Thanks Phoenix and Dlowan.
It's the voice of a friend of mine, quite a fighter, battled colon cancer to a standstill, lived four and a half years longer than anyone at Memorial Sloan Kettering had predicted, then just faded away.
The service is tomorrow.
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dlowan
 
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Reply Mon 24 Feb, 2003 06:55 am
My thoughts are with you.
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hiama
 
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Reply Mon 24 Feb, 2003 07:14 am
Joe oh Joe what to say, my dear Mum had the same battle, had a colostomy and then bravely lived another 13 years with a bag.

We lived through it with her and I am sure that I would not have dealt with it as well as she did.

All love for tomorrow.

Thanks for sharing with us.
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Phoenix32890
 
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Reply Mon 24 Feb, 2003 07:55 am
Joe Nation- Watching a dear friend die that way can be an emotionally draining experience. You are gifted that you can express your emotions through poetry, and can share your thoughts with others. I know that your beautiful and sensitive words will help someone who is facing a similar situation.

I will be thinking about you tomorrow!
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Joe Nation
 
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Reply Tue 17 Feb, 2009 09:09 pm
I've been thinking about G. lately.

Joe(so many lessons on not waiting to do something)Nation
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Endymion
 
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Reply Mon 2 Mar, 2009 02:02 pm

thanks for that Joe -- really good
I will pass it on to someone, if that's okay
Joe Nation
 
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Reply Thu 5 Mar, 2009 05:43 am
@Endymion,
Feel free.

Joe( ...I do...)Nation
Endymion
 
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Reply Thu 5 Mar, 2009 07:25 am
@Joe Nation,
cheers Smile

she encourages poetry as therapy for all sorts of people. I know she'll love it. she'll put it in her collection.

Endy(...i will too...)mion

ps - i see you're on your two thousandth life. That's some stamina, Joe. I'm on my first, but i learn my lessons fast. (most of 'em). Poetry may take me a few life times. Here's my favourite poem, written by a poet your poem here reminded me of - Leonard Cohen. I don't have any idea what it meant to him, but for me it has always summed up how i feel myself, and how i look for some sort of light (insight, wisdom, spirit, poetry) in others

HE WAS LAME

He was lame
as a 3 legged dog
screamed as he came
through the fog

If you are the Light
give me a light
buddy

i started a thread about it here back in Jun, 2005.
http://able2know.org/topic/54517-1 It don't go very far.
Maybe we could talk about poetry there (or somewhere) sometime... I'm working on 'mystery' at the moment (thanks to Miklos).
Like i say - - learning.

I see your work as abstract and value that.

wow - i'll bug out now and leave you in peace

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Joe Nation
 
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Reply Thu 5 Mar, 2009 09:25 pm
Leonard Cohen... I was so happy to find out that Leonard Cohen's agent had stolen all his money and that because of that he, Leonard Cohen, had to come out of the monastery and start doing a tour of US cities. (I was angry that anyone would steal, especially from Leonard Cohen, but hoped, so secretly hoped, that I could snag a ticket to see and hear him. Live.)

Here's my short history with Leonard Cohen.
A Danish exchange student living at my parent's house in 1963 is given a Leonard Cohen album by her American boyfriend. She hates it. She gives it to me. I am sixteen. I love every song on that album and I fall in love with the girl on the album's flip side.

http://www.leonardcohenfiles.com/broom.jpg

I vow that I shall write and sing songs and poems like the one I am hearing.
I vow that someday I shall have a girlfriend as cool as the one on the album's flip side.
I have kept only one of those vows.

I once played "Suzanne" for an extremely conservative Christian church. We, the congregation and me, talked until we were near exhausted about how only 'drowning men could see him".

(Pretty good for a nice Jewish boy to get so many Christians to be on their way to being Buddhists.)

I am on the way to check out your old thread.

Joe(no promises)Nation


ossobuco
 
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Reply Thu 5 Mar, 2009 09:52 pm
@Joe Nation,
Was that the album that was blue? The actual record, I mean.

Maybe that's only in my mind. If so, I had two of them, as I wore the first one out.
Joe Nation
 
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Reply Fri 6 Mar, 2009 11:16 pm
@ossobuco,
I don't think this record was blue, although somewhere deep in the recesses of what is left of my mind I remember having 33 1/3 disks that were indeed blue, Christmas albums mostly, right? I remember trying to explain to several people, mostly erstwhile girlfriends, that these songs were more than songs, that they were Leonard Cohen's life and he was letting us in on the experience. They wanted to know if I had the latest Chubby Checker release.

Joe(I did. We twisted the night away.)Nation
ossobuco
 
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Reply Fri 6 Mar, 2009 11:33 pm
@Joe Nation,
Well, that was one thing I could do, the twist.

But no, I remember blue records and am thinking the first Leonard Cohen was one of those. Never mind, I suppose I'm supplanting with imagination. I figure I'm wrong.
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