Zxincubus wrote:Small Gods. I can't really think of exactly how now
But I will post here if I do.
Hmmm - Small Gods is in "to be read" list - which is, sadly, several thousand books long.
I heard a most fascinating interview with the writer some time ago - which bumped it up quite a bit.
Be interested to hear your thoughts on it later. When you summon them!
K. wrote:dlowan wrote:Do you think literature helped you become aware of the underlying vacuum, or shaped your circuits?
Indirectly, it probably nurtured my sense of it -- shaped the circuits to some degree, maybe, but also gave dimension to my sense of them as "mere" circuits. I don?t know that it made me become aware of the underlying vacuum, in and of itself. Tough to say. What do you think about it, for your own part? I?d probably say I began seeking out certain kinds of literature because of my perception that that literature dealt with issues relating to a particular sense of and suspicion about reality that was already pregnant in me. (Fuel for the engine, as opposed to the engine itself, if you will.) More interestingly, one wonders where that initial sense might come from. Am I just a malcontent? Social upbringing? Noble affinity for the truth? Willfully blind to the obvious reality of a loving Judeo-Christian God because there?s Evil in my heart? Who knows. The more socially and emotionally isolated you are ?- can we argue this enhances or detracts from your capacity to accurately perceive reality? Many would argue ?detracts,? but it seems to me that swimming in a river isn?t necessarily the way to best perceive how a river operates.
Surely, everyone is subject to a certain amount of cultural brainwashing. The human mind has to work within the context and parameters it?s given ? so I?m prone to assume there a lot it can?t ?see? at all, and a lot it can only see through the unique refractions of its own specific and conditioned intellectual lens.
Hmmm - your post made me think for a long time. About the underlying vacuum - cos I have (as with many things) - a paradoxically comfortably in situ contradictory set of "beliefs" (more properly, I think, feelings) about it. (I suspect part of the comfort with holding paradoxical beliefs is intellectual laziness, but prefer to call it openness and tolerance of ambiguity.)
The vacuum - and realisation - hmmm - I wrote about that earlier in the thread - the moment when I realised that different theologies (in this case the Greek gods) were equally fervently embraced by their adherents as the "right" one - the one I was swimming in at the time, as a small child - and that this meant they were all equally fallible - and therefore none of them was likely to be true.
So literature DID move that one along - but I do not know that it was furthered by literature, as such - well, perhaps it was, cos I re-embraced Christianity at about 12 - and turfed it a year later - after reading "The Way of all Flesh" and Vidal's "Julian" - but that would have happened anyway - the embracing was a symptom of the incipient turfing.
By the time I read the absurdists and such, 'twas all over bar the shouting.
But now, I mostly have an underlying sense of meaning - and value - about life - which I maintain a meta-awareness of as quite likely to be avoidance, having gazed into the abyss and looked away - at the same time as I half regard it as constructed in full awareness of and in the face of the abyss.......and then, sometimes, I am a Buddhist!!!
So - I am saying fuel for the engine, I guess - but - I do believe literature can be a brilliant additive which makes the fuel far mor efficient in moving the engine along quickly.
And we being social animals, the sharing of the community of minds is a wonder, I believe.