Undecided and Missing a friend

So, my friend and I had a big fight and I decided to not talk to them for a month so I could have time to cool down and make up my mind. See for a long time we were just friends and then within the last year and a half we became best friends and everything was fine. But then just recently we started becoming more than friends we started including benefits into our relationship also. Then the relationship progressed further and we eventually decided to try dating, but my friend start to act funny and not talk to me as much as we used to. Even when we were starting to date he seemed distant and wouldn’t really talk to me unless it was in person. I started to even get the feeling that he was seeing other people even though we were trying to date. Ultimately what upset me was feeling like they weren’t my friend or my boyfriend. When I called him out on it he knew he was messing up but did nothing to fix it. So we fought and he told me he didn’t want to lose me as a friend but he already started to. In the end I went on a month break from him like I mentioned before, but now the month is up and I’m try to decide if I should talk to him again or is it just a lost cause.