Suicide And Better Living

Should I?
Take this knife and end my life
16 years well wasted.
No reason to care
It's all over, no time for compassion.
Lashing out at a mirrored reflection.
Collection of destruction and life on the brink.
Suicide my last option.
Here it goes, and there it went.
Can I find another exit?
In a world so unforgiving?
Or should I look?
Nothing but war ensues this earth
and all that inhabit it.
I try to fight but, find no cause.
Woken to a wolrd of industrial high rises
and tyrant's hell bent on domination.
What to do?
Why should I care?
Fear and courage, lust and greed, hate and love.
feelings so different, but all leading to the same.