@injustice,
@injustice! There you are... I use to work at a large health food store for a while... I don't really know why but everybody always seemed comfortable coming in and tell me all their problems... This one lady came in and she was so distraught she was making herself sick... She said that she could not handle the fact that so many women were getting raped? I asked her how many time a day she watched the news? She said three.... I said sweet heart! Man has been rapping women since the caveman days... The only difference now is that your bring it in to your living room every day... TURN THE TV OFF!
You need to put these moniter thing behind you now and get on with it... It's water under the bridge... and until you tell us about your relationship problem then we can't help... My only suggest to you, that might help you, without me knowing the problem... Is to get away from the problem for a short while... Don't run from it but take a short break... Get away from the world of opposites for a while... You know! ...Right and wrong, Good and bad, big and small... Go out and allow yourself the luxury of being with nature for a while... Just watch it with amazement like you did when you were a small child... Watch the birds, the clouds and trees... You need to clear your mind and let it stop racing... God interject in the gap between your thoughts... Give you body, mind and soul a chance to catch it's breath so to speak...
Don't believe in God? Don't like nature? Then go get a massage...