My name is Kennedy, I'm 18 years old, 11th year of high school and still trying to figure out what I want to do. Currently, I really like the idea of becoming a Hospice Nurse. Even though it may be a depressing environment considering people will be dying every day, I do want to help those kept in the Hospice have the best experience possible before their time has come to pass. I really like the hospitality category in terms of career/job and I think I'd like working in this career.
However, I have MAJOR anxieties about the math that may be involved. Science, I do like! I mean it's not my #1 favorite subject but I do like it. I also am pretty interested in psychology and anatomy if that's also required in terms of education. However, I've always had a bad relationship with math. I've always struggled with it younger as a kid. This probably sounds silly, but even today, when I get to a part in a certain math subject that I simply can't understand and I keep trying but still get nothing regardless, I tend to shut down and get quite negative emotionally.. I don't think it's only the math itself that causes me to get upset but also an underlying emotional/psychological problem that I may not have touched yet.. sometimes it may get to the point of me just wanting to die. (That's quite intense, I know. I feel weird talking about that. >.>)
With that, I find myself getting discouraged and kicking myself for not being able to be good at it like other people seem to be. I'm surprised that I passed my Algebra I EOC with a B. O-O I felt I did not so good on it. I absolutely dread doing algebra II and trigonometry if I do take it in the future. It's like this huge obstacle in my way that feels impossible to get over.
I'm so sorry if I was overly negative in this post! D: In the end though, I really love the idea of caring for people. Thank you if you took the time to read this. In the future, I hope to volunteer at a hospital (or hospice) so I can ultimately get the feel of the environment and if I find official hospice nurses, I can ask them all sorts of questions about their career.