@Frank Apisa,
No Frank. Your problem is that you are pursuing an
idiosyncratic project ( not a mutual one.) involving a pseudo-religious "absolute state of being" you want to call "reality". If you called that state "God" you would be able to commune with the pantheists at least ! You haven't worked out that you are still largely enmeshed in the social conditioning involved in Christian/Catholic concept of "being" and the status of humans as
sub-beings at best.
What philosophers like Heidegger did was to expose that conditioning and give a narrative of "being" based on the dynamic praxis of living. In order to depart from such conditioning, Heidegger attempted to construct a system of neologisms ..essentially a new language...which made no assumptions outside of common phenomenological experiences.
Here endeth the lesson. The ex-priest can now attempt to resume his somnolent posture, albeit in a bed in serious need of re-making.