@Vernon of Prague,
I crave for a intelligent talk. Today I had another chat in job about how to do it the best we can. Naturally, she completely ignored my suggestions and felt offended for "pushing her around".
This hospitality sector is... hell on earth. I am not saying that people there are assholes (well, some and not so few are...) but one thing is for certain - few people working there are somehow remarkable. Sure, they work long hours. But who doesn't? They speak several languages... ( OK, I give it to them. I have only broken English and lousy French). And what else? Prone to intellectual enhancement? No. Career ambitions? No. Emphatic? Hell no! Bigots? Some... What else... Just... just common rubble. Just as most of low-level society...
I talked with one 17 y.o. girl there. Well, I liked her at first. She is very cute. But frankly... average looking. And I found nothing remarkable about her too. Today after work I just causally approached her and asked her how is she doing. Basically, she stopped me in the middle of sentence and said good bye (because I tried to flirt with her before). I am not offended, but now, I see very little reasons to pay her attention to her any more. She has except her youth and inherited cuteness nothing to offer, yet she treats offers for at least friendship like this. Damn her.
I wanted to make post about breakthrough in my inner attitude about women, but I will do it later. For now all I can say is that maybe I am single in 27, but still better to be single and proud, OK guy then sorry crying little baby and latent looser. Just... keep your chin up.
aw, screw it, I'll write it right now: I no longer feel frustrated.
Guess why? Because of sex of course... I paid for the services. And it was mostly beneficial. All these looser's toughs I had was purely because of this! I was not thinking like such looser in any other aspect of my life, so why here? Because my thoughts were outside of my control. It simply did not belong to me any more, but rather to my tormented body. Frustration is serious stage of deprivation, just like food or sleep. Starvation will have serious both physical and psychological consequences on person and therefore it's dangerous. Just like frustration. Moreover, everybody can feel frustrated men (mostly because of insecurity and tension they spread around) and so no women like them. Fail dwells another fail... So, for the future:
At least once a month I will go and see commercial service providers in order to keep my health bot mental and physical at bay. This is crucial and I don't know why I didn't do this before.
Lastly, I crave for smart people. All this hospitality sector... dump unremarkable rednecks... I applied for few interesting positions
and I am getting very positive response. Hopefully I will settle in one development company as business developer where I will bring up to light my own project and startups... with resources of others. and FINALLY: POEPLE OF MY GID DARNED MENTALITY!!!! Fok! I need them! So badly!! I am so much tired of stings every time I show little common-sense, not to speak of academic knowledge. With that I would be directly kicked out of window...