Unreasonable Progress

This is the beginning of the first chapter of a novel I'm writing. Don't read it if you get offended by swearing or anything.

"The reasonable man adapts himself to the world; the unreasonable man persists in trying to adapt the world to himself. Therefore all progress depends on the unreasonable man."
--George Bernard Shaw

JANUARY 2001

CHAPTER 1

J.T.

"Locking a teacher in the supply closet," accused the principal, Cynthia Wood. She looked concerned.

"He got in there voluntarily," I insisted.

"Leaving him there for three periods," she went on as if she just couldn't see how anybody could have done something so terrible.

"He said he wasn't hungry," I justified.

"Jordan, Jordan, Jordan."

She always repeated my name like that, as though it would somehow make me totally remorseful all of a sudden for everything I'd done. Like that was happening.

"Cynthia, Cynthia, Cynthia," I said.

"You know we can't just let you go with a warning this time," she told me austerely.

That was stupid. When had they ever let me go with just a warning?

"J.T., you know very well that this isn't your first offense."

"I've never locked anyone in a supply closet before yesterday," I informed her, putting my feet up on her desk.

"I don't just mean this incident, J.T. And I am not only referring to the fact that you are failing over half of your classes. For the last year and half, we've been putting up with your pranks, your practical jokes, your lack of application..."

I took out my headphones and prepared to put them on, letting her know I didn't care to hear the list.

"...your defiance, your complete disregard for the rules...and then of course there's your drug problem..."

"I'm not on drugs," I interrupted.

"I'm not here to judge, J.T."

What the hell? "I'm not on drugs!" I persisted, although it was, for some reason, a pretty common misconception.

"What bothers me most," said Ms. Wood seriously, "is that the entire student body looks up to you. If J.T. Tyler locks a teacher in a supply closet, seven hundred and nineteen other children are going to lock teachers in supply closets. Don't you see the fix I'm in?"

"Don't you see I don't give a ****?"

She sighed. When I'd first come to the school and said something like that, she'd freaked out. Now it was expected.

"Look. J.T. They follow you. They want to be like you. For some reason that I can't possibly comprehend, you're a role model--so you should try setting a good example every once in a while."

"You don't get it," I realized, leaning back to balance the chair on two legs, holding onto the desk to stay up. "Maybe this is why they look up to me. I have the guts to do what they want to do but don't. Listen. I locked McDillan in the closet because he was being an asshole. The whole class knew he was being an asshole. They all wanted him to be locked in a supply closet. Any one-a' them woulda' been the one to do it if they weren't so fuckin' scared of you. Dig?"

She had her arms folded now. Something about this meeting was different than all the other times I had been sitting there in Ms. Wood's office. I should have known what it was, because I'd already been expelled from four elementary schools. This was a middle school, though. It had been a full two years since I had been expelled. I guess I'd forgotten what it was like, talking to a principal when he or she was about to tell me not to come back. At least, it was usually a principal or vice principal. Sometimes it was just a guidance counselor.

I looked around the office in boredom. It was bigger than it had to be. All that was in it really was the oak desk and a few chairs.

"I've called your parents, Jordan," Ms. Woods informed me. "They should arrive at any minute."

She was right, because they showed up pretty soon after she said that.
The last time they had been in the office with me it had been pretty embarrassing. I'd been in trouble for a repeated offense of public displays of affection, which basically meant I'd been making out in hallways too much. They made a huge deal about it. In high school they don't care, but they crack down on it pretty hard in middle school. And in elementary school. And in preschool. I thought the whole thing was pretty stupid. It was just kissing, really, but they acted like I was hosting orgies in the middle of the cafeteria. The overreaction of adults was often hilarious.

"Please sit down, Mr. Tyler, Mrs. Tyler."

My parents sat. They were pretty normal people, actually. People thought that because of the way I was turning out, I must have had a broken family, or abusive parents, or something. Nah. They were assholes, but not criminal assholes, and they even had a perfect marriage and everything. I never understood what the big deal was with broken families, anyway. If my parents had been divorced, I wouldn't have given a damn. If they had never been around, I wouldn't have given a damn about that either. I guessed that it would have sucked to have abusive parents, but you didn't really think of stuff like that living in River Heights. Nobody I knew back then had ever been abused. My dad had hit me once a year or two ago, but I had just hit him back harder--so it never happened again. I still thought, though, that it would have happened again if I hadn't hit him back.

My dad was a tall, balding electronics engineer, with a pretty clueless expression on his face most of the time when it came to stuff about me. He had a pretty high IQ--not as high as mine, but pretty high. He wasn't stupid about everything. He was just stupid when it came to me. He was smiling then, like this was a tea party or something. My mom had the same clueless expression. She was a few inches shorter than my dad, and was not going bald. My parents had been hippies when they were my age. Basically that meant that they used to have long hair and made love not war.

Oh, I don't really know if I can call what my parents had been hippies. Now they seemed too square to have been mixed up in drugs or anything. Plus they'd lived in Canada at the time, where there was no war to protest. They had sure as hell dressed like hippies, though.

They weren't a thing like hippies now. Their clothes and hairstyles had changed with the times. My dad had even been in the Canadian Air Force at one point, after his hippie stage.

I had seen a picture of my parents taken in the sixties and laughed at it, wondering why anyone ever would go out in public like that. A second later I'd had an image of a later generation of kids looking at a picture of the middle school me and laughing at it. Still, I thought anyone would be able to see that my generation dressed better than hippies. I was against war, and I'd always wanted to go to a protest, but even if I had lived in the sixties I wouldn't have been a hippie. I would have looked really bad with long hair, I didn't like tie-dye, and I didn't like drugs. If I had lived in the sixties I most certainly would have been a hood. Man had they been cool.

"I assume you're aware of the trouble your son has been causing," Ms. Wood said strictly, frowning like this was important. She didn't wait for an answer or anything. She talked to my parents for a pretty long time about boring grown-up stuff.

I put on my headphones, and they didn't even notice until I blasted "Smells Like Teen Spirit."

"J.T., it's hurting our ears..."

Yeah right. Then they went telling us kids not to exaggerate. Oh well--it wasn't as hypocritical as some other things people did. Everybody was a hypocrite. Even I was a hypocrite.

"So I can't imagine what it's doing to you," my mom finished.

"I'm alright, really," I said. I could hear her because at that point I was between tracks.

"J.T., you should be listening to this," said Dad.

"I am listening," I informed him. "I have an incredible ability to double-task." I took the headphones off, but only because I wanted to switch CDs. "What's up?"

Ms. Wood cleared her throat. I took out Nirvana and flipped through my CD case.

"J.T.," Ms. Wood said. "J.T. Listen to me."

They kept on saying my name. I don't really know why. Ms. Wood had said my name about a thousand times in this meeting.

"Yeah?"

"I am beginning to think..." She took a deep breath.

That's when I realized what was coming. I had mixed emotions about it. On the one hand I had a lot of friends there, but on the other hand I figured I would probably end up at River Heights Junior High, where all my friends from elementary school went, including my best friend, Dave. "That's good," I said. "I begin to think sometimes, too."

"Yes, well...J.T.,"--there it was again--"we're beginning to think that West Street Middle School is not the right place for you."

No ****, Sherlock. I almost laughed. West Street Middle School wasn't the right place for anybody who wasn't a studious square who got straight A's and actually liked history class, or at least thought it was okay.

"You're kicking me out," I said emotionlessly.

"She's only saying that maybe you should try something else, J.T.," my mother started. My mother was a very deluded person.

"I'm kicking you out," Ms. Woods said honestly. It sounded weird coming from her. You'd think she'd have had some more polite way to say it. The bitch.

"It's okay," I told my parents. "RHJH has openings."

"J.T., I don't think you'd do any better at River Heights Junior High than you are doing here," warned Ms. Wood.

"Me neither," I agreed. I didn't think that meant anything.

"I think there is a better alternative," stated Ms. Wood.
I guess I was kind of curious about that. I wondered if they could get permission from the government to let me drop out of school completely. I wondered if that were at least possible. I wondered if I'd like that if it were.

"When my son was your age, I sent him to St. Joseph Hall."

"What is that, some private school?" I asked. I had kind of a grudge against private schools.

"Yes," she said, but she sounded as though there were more to it than that.

Oh, no, I thought. It's a juvenile correctional facility. I had never been to one of those, but there had been some close calls. My cousin Jace had been in a reformatory once and juvy a couple of times, and he was only a couple of years older than me. Of course he wasn't from River Heights. I bet a River Heights kid would get killed in juvy.

"It's a Catholic boarding school for boys."

I burst out laughing. That was, of course, a million times worse than a juvenile correctional facility.

She went on and on about the great education I would receive in--get this--Oregon. Like my parents were going to send me out of the state because she said so.