@jeffers,
No it's not. I reached holism from the depths of this abyss. Holism can only be obtained once you master chaos, it cannot be obtained to a full-circle until you create the hole, you dig? Life is like space - first it makes no sense - then draws dimension - like this . . > __ Then if you draw a line diagonally inwards from each end of this line, you get a triangle. Then if you create an hourglass with two triangles, sticking two more pieces on each side, you create an imaginary square, and that's how the Universe was formed. Triangles and hourglasses. If you look at the birth of a cell and the birth of a galaxy, you'll see it is born like this {}{} symbol.
So yes, if you live in the middle, everything looks small, but when you are not afraid to watch things get big, by crossing the bridge to either side of the hourglass, time will disappear along with you, so you can witness true experience.
Nihilism is just people not understand life's illusion. They slide down their silver helix, off the ramp, into the oblivion - respawning back at the top. They don't know why nothing has changed, and that's because they have too much sliding down the helix. To master chaos, one has to control the climax right at the end, which should give you this feeling of life surging through your body - live life with that kept, unless you want to let it go, that's up to you. But heed my word, life is all about controlling its climaxes. When you let it go, life resets - don't let it reset.