@Buttermilk,
Thanks, I hadn't seen that, showing more re his hate . Paraphrasing my take of his view re the black guy and four women, "even a black guy can get women but I can't.
edit - your quote is also helpful re the self hate going on seemingly early.
I want to talk about height. Maybe that is related to anti asian? self..
I read social stuff in news venues sometimes, just so I don't lose complete contact with earth at my age, and one of the key things on, say, the Washington Post's Date Lab (how to waste time reading) is that women seem to prefer men taller than they are. I don't personally get this at all.
There I was in chem lab and had been having conversations with the smartass guy across the two row lab table, and he walked me back to the student union after class one day and asked me out (was that the time we went to see Coltrane?) Anyway, he was my first lover, very well remembered and still admired re his life since me - he taught me so much: about art, poetry, literature, politics/religion, music, sex, and love. He was 5' 3"; I was a hair short of 5' 6".
I guess liking tall is some atavistic response, but I doubt it is so across the board. Or broad.
Anyway, this Elliot guy had an I am short problem very young and he wasn't helped out of that, it seems.