You are not to blame

I hold on to you cause i'm scared to forget
that you were the love of my life
You were my fears and secrets
You were my will to survive
To you I owe my greatest pain
You hurt me, heal me, hurt me, feel me
When does it all subside

For you I gave up everything
i ever wanted at the time
It was you, always on my mind
It was you who I loved
who made me feel whole
It was you that broke my heart
and burnt a scar in my soul

But I am the one who carries you on
I just can't let go
You were everything to me
Everything I know
And even though you're not around
I still blame you for this pain
But what am I thinking
I did this to myself
You are not to blame!