Sartre and Nausea

Good Point
I have read Nausea, or perhaps better well known as Le Nausea. I noticed upon first reading. That the first point where the nausea started to sink in was when he in the early beginning of his diary entries. Satre made a point of purposely making it very prominent of rapid descent. First example is when he writes about walking past the piece of paper on the ground that normally he would stop and pick up. Though for some unknown reason he moves past it and provides insight towards a sort of subliminal message that the author was to brink it nothing but down hill from that point on.
I suffer from Panic disorder Etc.. Though at the same time I understand that my life is up to me and everyday when I wake from my slumber I can dig myself a hole and hide in shame allowing victory to those that tried to take it away. Or I can wake up every morning and move on in pure positive nature. In other words I wish to take all my mistakes and whatever drama I have been through or put someone through. To instead turn around like an alegebraic equation and turn a negative into a positive in hopes of getting a grand version of what x equals.
See too many people hide behind their past. Thus in turn standing in their own way. When they could go out and positively educate the children of our future. " We Do Not Own Our World We Simply Borrow It From Our Children".

Thanks for replying and your insight. I think you have expressed your positive outlook in a really interesting way.

this is quite surprising for me. A few weeks ago I had what I believe to be a panic attack; I felt like I was going insane, and it was like the walls of my room were caving in on me. however, since that terrible experience I have had what appears to be a shift in perception, but just after I had the attack, I had a conversation with my mother which changed the way that I understand her as a person. subsequently, this conversation felt like it changed my perception of people in general, but I had what I am almost certain was a panic attack shortly before I had the conversation; I felt that the conversation I had really help me think about people, but my question now is, did the panic attack have anything to do with my shift in perception?

Thinkzinc, do you know any websites that contain information about panic attacks and their relation with shifts in perception? I am keen to find out more.