Self pity is a bad trip. I am not perfect, I have my faults and I will not justify them by lowering others in my perceptions.
I have been loved, I have been hated.
I guess the worst thing someone can say to me is "Don't let it go to your head." as if I have a propensity for self worship. Go ahead, rain on my parade... my cake has been left in the rain more than once...
I neither worship or loath myself. I guess I just live and try to survive from day to day. I have hopes and dreams and yes, I have feelings like everyone else.
I generally know who my enemies are and I have been loved beyond what I have deserved at times.
When I have been loved (and I certainly have), I have often felt undeserving such to the point that I have done everything in my power to ruin that love. Of this I am often haunted.
When I have been treated with animosity I have sometimes bent over backwards to obtain favor even at the expense my own self pride.
I guess I am human and faulted, even my own words now seem naive and childish.
Why I would get a card like this on a day like today? I am not sure but, "I won't let it go to my head"...