I have thought of this so many times, questioned His existence. It is very natural and human to be curious so I don't think you have to be judged harshly or negatively by those devoted Christians or Catholics. I respect their belief since I myself am a labeled Christian because of my family. I therefore feel guilty for having such a shallow mind to question His existence but then again I try to connect the dots and ask myself if I ever felt His presence. Maybe His essence is not there to guide us or make us feel as if we are loved or guided because we are the ones who wont even respect nor accept Him in our lives. It's a possible reason right? But think again, who else can help us in situations of doubt like these? Other people will only judge us and criticize us and eventually rant or sermon at us that we should just believe in Him with out having our questions and thoughts explained. That's why it struck me, why can't God help us realize that he is true and existing? Why can't I see a miracle? It always goes on like that.
I believe you are posting that opinion of yours because you are highly confused. I sense that you shouldn't even be considered an athiest! Because you are still in doubt, still in question, still confused and basing your past painful experiences to link your belief about God. I have no offense against you because I can honestly relate to this. I don't know what our problem is, are we overthinking? are we out of our minds? are we hypocrites? I don't know either but I agree to your opnions because of what is happening around us! Too much tragedies! I was hoping that someday it would happen like what bible "stories" say that God had appeared. Why can't God appear to our era too? Why only them? It is very confusing if you go through every detail.
One question leads you to another but that's how life is. I asked my mom about this and she first got intensely mad and she advised me that my curious mind cannot be answered by her own opinions too. She tells me to just respect the religion, the stories, the faith, the belief and the Savior. There's nothing to lose right? I realised so much from this thread, maybe I should start praying and stop being so sensitive about this. Maybe believing is the only way.
I wanted to so badly just as you to know the truth. I sense that you even want to believe if only there was a sign. I thought so too but what bothered me is, if I will start believing, praying, worshipping just as I did years ago as a child, what happens next? which is why I stopped believing again because I felt like a traitor who just keeps on praying because I had to because he must be praised and because it was part of my religion. I felt no sincerity with in me so I stopped.
I just hope no body becomes so furious about this post nor about his thread. The one who posted this is apparently confused and trying to elaborate further his questions in mind about God's existence. We can't blame society to have trust issues in every way because the society itself also creates the lies out of the real truth. Media, fame, the list goes on and on. Everything's unstoppable. Human mind become more imaginative, creative, knowledgeable and even more wiser to question sensitive topics like these.
I share this post not to offend anyone but to somehow make other people out there with same thoughts as mine feel normal and could be able to relate to this. I have no other intentions but also to let it all out and express what I think. Don't judge please, I am just 18 years old.