Fact is, just in case you missed the sarcasm...I am right here and will be every step of the way. I will never leave you, CM...not for a second. I never have. If you think that I have run away from you...you really are living a dream existence.
you misunderstand me and take my phrases literally. the only thing you run away from is honest investigation into what i am saying, and into life/reality/universe/god and whatever else may or may not exist.
of course you will never 'run away' from me, you are always with me 'every step of the way' because you need me. you need to keep 'facing' me by 'staring my absurdity straight in the face', and running away from it internally out of fear. and continually doing so, to slowly build up your courage to eventually and finally actually 'face' it properly.
The fact that I acknowledge I do not know the answers to Ultimate questions...does NOT mean I am not searching. You are really grasping at straws with nonsense like that. I acknowledge I do not know those kinds of answers....BECAUSE I DO NOT KNOW THEM.
But good luck with that kind of thinking. It's gotten you this far, which is to what...sixth grade?
so you say you are searching, but you acknowledge you don't know the answers now. so how are you searching? you are discussing on these forums, reading other material, doing whatever. you have been doing so your whole life. yet you still are sticking to not being able to know the ultimate reality.
you have been living 70+ years, searching for ultimate reality but not finding it. i am simply saying that your 'search' is always impeded by your own belief system, ie that you exist as a separate individual who's mind needs to understand ultimate reality, and because this appears impossible (and is impossible), you conclude that living in this 'i don't know' state is the only possibility.
but the 'i don't know' state dissolves in non duality, when the individual realises that it DOES know that it doesn't exist on its own, separately. that individuality is always an illusion, and this becomes a direct, experiential knowledge, experienced by the non dual noumenon, and not the individual phenomenon.