@jcboy,
Lincoln looks like my cat Flash Gordon.
Flash gordon was absolutely MY BOY.
he was a little kitten outside our apt building and he saw me once.. followed me up the stairs and into y apt.
Cute.. cute.. we petted him for a bit, then put him back outside thinking he belonged to someone.
That boy stayed at my door for days.
I let him back in ONCE and he played again, and feel asleep in jillians bed. I picked him up again and tried to take him out of her room. I shut the door and he started screaming. Jumped out of my arms and clawed at her door like he was on fire..
He stayed.
He never ever ever left my side or hers. Didnt like my ex so much
He would kiss me all the time, especially when I was asleep. Would talk and talk and talk. I loved that boy. He was such a 'frat boy' .
One day after I moved to my new condo some other boy cat was marking the front door and Flash was pissed. Mind you, this boy would bite people who got near me if he didnt know them. .. and that other cat was just too much.
I opened the door and out of no where he just bolted off in an attempt to get that cat away from HIS door.
he was hit by a car.
That was just a bit over 1 year ago, just before last christmas.
Not the same as having him put down, but that loss is too much. I can not and will not have another cat after that.
I get what you are going through, and I hope you get through it easily.
* big hug *