Chained to a shadow

I've been seeking light for days
Down here in your shadow, I live
My earth moved when you spoke
My mind wanders torward you
My highest mountains, you've already climbed

You needn't pay me any consideration
You have no intentions, nor perceptions
Earthly things hold no interest
To one who flies so high
Who or what god would create such a thing

Reaching out, but not to me
Solely planning your day
As I fold my heart with eight creases
One for each time you have been oblivious
Each fold to make my heart smaller

There will be less for you to hurt
Yet each crease brings forth intense pain
An inevitable goodbye, a new and painful memory
Here in your shadow which never leaves
You will be gone

Damn my addiction to you
Promises made at three in the morning
Not a day passed without a promise
Softly, the chain was binding me to you
I placed you above my own concern

With each promise the links were strengthened
Made strong with yet more promises
The chain I now call Titanic
Made to make me feel safe
Only to place me in peril upon unseen weakness

Now I am dying from exposure, alone
Here in the cold abyss of your shadow
Flying so high against the sun
You have no intentions, nor perceptions
Earthly things hold no interest

And this is where a fool should be
A crucified vessel of trust
As the chain cries without echo
Wishing for one clean break that will not come
Who or what god would create such a thing

As I write this, I'm talking to you
But you won't hear me or read me
The phone that used to be warm til 4am
Is the phone that never rings
Yet I wait for the junkies fix

I talk to you 24/7 in my head
You mishandled the friendship part
You have no intentions, nor perceptions
How could you not hear me now
Nothing I say escapes your shadow

I know I must move on
What kind of therapy shall I seek
Is there a cure for one hooked on you
These links of rusty memories that scrape as I walk
Who or what god would create such a thing

If only time can heal me
Can I make my own clock from the broken links
And cheat by moving the hands ahead as I wish
Aching as your image fades to reveal the sun
Unfolding my heart, folding your shadow

I never anticipated this eclipse