::no name::... a poem

have you ever thought about
all we could have been my friend
if we hadn't started to shout
if it hadn't crashed to an end
have you ever been caught thinking
staring out the window crying
and your heart has started leaking
all those things that had been lying
you can no longer convince your thoughts
urthat your better without me
you cant even get the plots
to the soap operas on tv
trust has long since been forgotten
since we parted our ways
and reality, i've been caught in
wishing i could end this phase
how come you never called me
i stared at my mirror for hours
wondering if i could really be that ugly
and took about a million showers
i coulnd't wipe off all the dirt
all the distress clinging still
couldnt shave off all the hurt
all my pride and headstrong will
and if your ever near me again
know that i'll speak no more
i can't stand to be your friend
to know from you my heart tore
i'll cut away all the strings
all these things you've made me feel
and so god give me wings
i'll try to live i'll try to be real